:.lunch hour sucks.:

argh.......figgin' argh.....LUNCH HOUR SUCKS!!!!

i swear...this is sooooo not me......i don't like what is happening to my friggin' life!....i miss my babyfarker....i was just goin' through my english lit text during my english class...and there i found her letter!!!!....argh....babybooonzzzzz.....i soooo need you down here in friggin' brunei!!!....gawd.....u know u are the only one who can help cheer me up and everything!....argh....i miss u....i miss him....i miss abgzzz.....i'm missing every one and no one knows it....oh well...not like they give a fuck!


i see the old people i used to hang with, the feelin aint just the same no more....u guys don't get it...u dont know what has been happening with me....ITS NOT MY FAULT!!!!! thank god yennie bunzz is back...i missed her too farkin' lots too...she was one of the few people who i can cry on to....gawd! i miss everyone who has walked in and out of my life recently....especially u!....i may not want to admit it but yes i miss u!!!...among all people but why you!....no not YOU!...but you! it irritates me 'cos everytime i want to do something, it would remind me of YOU!....argh, the malls, the places, the drinks! gawd!....no!!!!.....i hate this part!....i'm leaving but you are not! leave me alone!...i need that...i seriously do!!!! please !!!


alright, before i start gettin all irritated and all...and start to tear up again and reminise about my lovely past...i should go....but before that.....nina and nana....hi *muahhuggers*

:.back in school.;

2nd day back in school and it hasnt been as how i expected it to be....not hell...but better! i guess its cos i've done some work during the holidays...yes, i sat my ass down in front of my school work during the holidays.

anyhoots, life hasnt been that bad...a couple of ups and downs, but so far, i have been happy and the decisions that I have been making has been making me really happy. I know i have regretted some, but then again when i think of it, it aint worth regretting 'cos i know at least i have tried. =)

In the past 2 days, i have been in and out of the hospital, monday, was there for a check up then on tuesday, was there for blood test if i have annemia??? like me annemic?, i don't think so...but oh well, what the hell, never know. was so scared during the blood test....gak, but it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be so.....

Besides hospital and school, i have been getting some of my much needed sleeps both in the afternoon and at night...loving it! but somehow i am able to get some work done so its all good.....sad bit is, i dont have my laptop now...well i do but its at the hospital =( so i am stuck with my brothers pc which no one uses... =( i want my baby back!!! oh well another couple of days =)

taggers!!!
boonish:- i love u lots woman!!
kak cil:- will msg u asap....love u too....
iyra:- thanks for droppin me some <33 much needed =) <33 u lots too...

to everyone...*muahhuggers*

the past few weeks

Life isn’t as unfair as we think it really is. There are some things in life that is good but we think it really isn’t. There are some happenings in our life in which we don’t expect or don’t want to happen. For some reason, I, have been thinking about what has been happening in my life for the past few weeks.

It all started when I started to hang around my sisters and their friends. They are one unbelievable group of people that I know. These are the people who taught me to grow up; they taught me part of who I am today. I am grateful that they are my friends as well. I love the fact that they do not disregard because of my age. Yes, I am way younger than all of them and all of them are already working while here I am still in school and enjoying it. I was starting to hate school because of the workload but then to come think of it, I am pretty lucky that I’m still in school because I get to enjoy life as well.

So, this bunch of people that I have been out and about with most of the time are not workaholics but they make sure that their work is done, but are fun-aholics (if there is such word). They love to enjoy the pleasures of life *let’s drink to that*.

The best thing about being with them are the fact that when you are feeling depressed or whatever is putting your spirit down, someone is always there to cheer up whoever is down. There is always someone there anytime you need a friend. We always as in always make up occasions just so that we could enjoy each and everyone’s company. *anniversary, birthdays* There was never a time that I spent with them that I didn’t enjoy and I have never regretted the late night sleeping, the sessions, the f.ts’ , chilling, basically everything that we do.

I used to think that life is all about pain and suffering. Well sure, we do suffer as well but up to a certain point. We also enjoy life but when we do, we don’t usually realize that we are already enjoying our life and only realize it in the end. How sad is that? Oh well, all I can say is that whatever it is, just be happy and take things as they come and think of that future not just the present.

*this is for the menglait association* Thanks for everything!

they are the ones who have made me happy these past few weeks...thanks you sooo much....love u all lots and lots!!!