i hate myself.

i just want to die die die. i hate hate hate myself.

so sue me if that's what you want. i do not want this.

i hate hate hate myself.

somebody just kill me or just take me away.

im unhappy.

Do you even know how hurt I am right now? Do you even bother? Have you ever wondered what it's like to be me? Have you ever thought of how I feel? Have you ever thought of just not being selfish and think of me?

You were my happiness, I guess not. I guess now I have to search for the happiness within me.

I am tryin to be happy. I am tryin to be happy without you.

I hate being alone. but right now, I am so alone. I never thought you would be hurting me this way. I cannot believe that this is happening to me now. *angel, help me* The feeling of loneliness is the worst feeling that anyone could have. For some reason, this is the time where I wished that you would kiss my tears away and say that you love me. for some reason, this is the time where I wish that you were the guy that I first met.

im crying. again.

I do not think I need to explain myself to people why I am feeling the way that I do.

I am unhappy.

I know you ladies are worried about me and all but yes, I am fine. I will be fine once this weekend is over and done with. Right now, I cannot assure you both that I am uberly happy.

I can be happy but I choose not to be.

I want to cry but I shall not. Not until this friday comes.

On a more happier note. Izzah, it was pleasure having you here at my crib and I am sorry if I wasn't at my best. I do hope you enjoyed your stay here. Haha..you should be. I cooked for you. I semi-kinda burnt my hand for you. So you should be happy. I also introduced you to a hot guy. *joke* hehe...

I would post pictures but umm...yeah.. I think I shall...










Saturday afternoon with my lovelies... izzah, yen and I karaoke-ing at the mall arcade. It can be fun. Everyone should try it.




I shall post the others when I've put them all in one page. Maybe later. hehe.. ;) hugs and kisses.

everytime I close my eyes, all I can see is all the negative things that can happen.

All I am hoping is that nothing does happen.

I am crying, deep inside, where no one can see... I am crying.

Maybe all I need is some reassurance. But then again, from the tone of your voice, you sound very happy, I do not know why. I need you here right now where you can hug me and tell me that you love me. I do not want you where you are right now.

Fuck.

I hate what I am feeling right now.

I just hope you love me enough.



I am hating myself right now for everything that I have done wrong.

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

hmm...interesting.. wonder if its true?? boo...tell me??