i'm sorry.

afraid of the future

I just came home from the church after visiting one of our family friend whose remains lay there. I shall miss his smile. While I was there, I started thinking...'damn, we never know when we are really going to go.' He was just playing ball and then he passed. Why?, he wasn't even 40 yet and he has such young children. Well as I always say, I'd rather die in an accident then die having a sickness that even though would prolong my life, its just a way of saying goodbye slowly.

I don't like to think of it.

additional year.

I turned 22. It was a bleh. I'm getting old and nothing has changed. Well nothing that I know of.

My husband said I'm a pessimist. Yes I am. I hate that part of me but I am.

I hate my job. I need something that would inspire me. I need something that would make me want to go to work everyday. I do not like where I am now. I do not like her there. I am so totally against her but that is life. I can't have everything I want. I know it.

I hate rumors. I hate being the person that I am.

Sorry.