Your Birthdate: October 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate. You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken. And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted. Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved. Your strength: Your flair Your weakness: If you think it, you say it Your power color: Scarlet red Your power symbol: Inverted triangle Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I reckon its partly true..but hey...who knows?hehe...

All I ever wanted was to be happy. I tried. Promise. I did. Somehow, there is still something missing.

It isn't him. He is in my life and I am loving it.

But there is something missing.

Earlier tonight, my mom asked me to help her in church as she said my friends were there. The moment I entered there, my friends didn't even bother saying 'hi' or watever. I do not know if I am just being overly sensitive but it was like as if I wasn't even there. Thank God bun bunz was there. I reckon, now I know why I have been partially MIA-ing from them.

Please do not tell me that you miss me when I know that you really do not.

*No, hun...it ain't for U*

I am super sensitive nowadays. I do not know why. I need my baby.

"You've made this day a special day by just your being you. There's no person in the whole world like you. And I like you just the way you are." - Mr. Rogers


I love this quote. It is true. I do love him just the way he is. There really is nothing that I want to change about him. I know that you have flaws. Honey, I have faults too. But hey, I still love him the way that he is.

However, I am loving the fact that he is soooo sweet with me. I like. I like the fact that I get to manja at him and he still loves it. =P

Honestly, there are more to that. I shall just keep it to myself. Hehe.

I love you.

We wear these clothes and this make-up for other woman more than for men. Men don’t care. They just want us naked. ~ Unknown

For some reason, this quote is true. I reckon, I only wear make up and wear perfect clothes when I am out with my friends. For long part of my relationship, I wasn't really bothered about how I looked. I guess 'cos I thought that for him my looks didn't matter. Then at some point, I reckon it did. So yes, I shall from now on. Be ready to take a look on the new me.

Love is not needing a snooze button on your alarm clock
because when it goes off the first time in the morning
the thoughts of your loved one
make it impossible to fall back asleep.

- Natasha Harris -

That is how I really feel whenever I am with you. Everytime I wake up early in the morning with you by my side. I just can't fall asleep again. Because the thought of knowing that I have you by my side and you loving me is the best feeling in the world.

I love you.

Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever...-- Isak Dinesen

I was just browsing through some things and this is what I stumbled on. It felt good.

Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.' Mature love says 'I need you because I love you.' -- Erich Fromm

I reckon I have a matured love for him but who knows right? I mean I am so sure that I need him so much because I do love him. I need him all the time even when I know I can do things on my own. Why is that? I guess 'cos i know that he is really there for me *or maybe I am just hoping*. Well whatever I am hoping for, I just want us to be there for each other.

Baby, thank you for everything. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for staying even after everything that we have been through. Thank you so much. I really do appreciate being with you. Stay with me and never leave?

IzzaH...yes, I am back with him. Right now..I am just hoping for the best.
Boonz...don't hate him. I love him. I love you. Just try to understand how everything is just so complicated. Life is full of complications.

All I want to do is CRY CRY CRY....

I can never ever do anything right for you. I swear I can't. All you do is realise all my small faults and all that. I am starting to hate myself again.

Can't you tell with those pictures, I was just tryin to be happy? I thought I have told you that. All I want is just to be happy. But now...I don't know. You don't know just how much I am hurting.

I can't believe that I can never ever make you feel happy. There was once in our life that we were happy. I am still that person. I mean honestly, then you wouldn't really care about all the small errors in my life but now all you notice are my mistakes in life. For once can you notice something else? Please?

I am hurting.

I need good chocolate. "All I really need is love, but a little Chocolate now and then doesn't hurt!" Lucy Van Pelt.

I want to cry now but I have got to hold them down.

Boonz. I need you. I need someone like you to talk to right now.

I know some of you will kill me after reading this. I know boon will kill me after she reads this but anyways.

I am back with him now. I am just taking it one day at a time now. I shall just enjoy life for now.

I was reading some quotes about chocolates. They came from a friend. It said
"It's not that chocolates are a substitute for love. Love is a substitute for chocolate. Chocolate is, let's face it, far more reliable than a man."-Miranda Ingram

I reckon thats a really good quote.

Izzah....Remember when I said to let it go. I said it cos I thought it was easy. But then once you are there. It really isn't. I mean no one really knows whats happening and how you both really feel for each other except yourself and him and its so hard. But hey I'm good now.. hehe...

I'm not saying that I am sad or watever..Im a pessimist. Don't bother asking whats in my head. Its just gonna complicate things.

I love you.

I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one who could always brighten up a day even if she couldn’t brighten up her own.~ Unknown

I cried the moment you left today.

Thank you. Thank you for everything.

So where are we now? Am i still gonna live in my fairytale land or will you drag me down from there and make my fairytale a reality??

I love you.