on the verge of....

"It takes a long time to grow an old friend."
- by John Leonard

I think...Besh has been my 'oldest' friend. I've known her since forever, since before we even started school. we practically grew up with each other. Although, I know that we've drifted apart in the past, I reckon our friendship now is stronger than ever. I love her for that. For some reason, we can relate to each other more than anyone else. *except of course my yennie bun bun..so u better some back okay?* in the last year or so.. Besh has been there for me..and hopefully, I too the same for her.



It has been an uber long time since i met up and chatted with my friends. I've missed them. It has been even a longer time that all of us met each other together, just like old times. oh well. Yesterdays' lunch with besh was perfect. We both just needed the same R&R...*yes I need them too* We both needed to vent and it was just perfect. I've missed her loads. The other day levv came over to the house to get his cheesecake but the idiot forgot to take it too... oh well i shall just eat it. It will just rot in the fridge if ever. that boy is just a boy. but i still love him.

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"Making the decision to have a child-it's momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."
--Elizabeth Stone

I love being a mother. It may be a tough job but I am loving it. When i need some time for myself or time with my hubby that is when my maid comes and she has been of great help to me. She has been so nice.

All i ever want in this life is to be a mother someday and give that unconditional love my parentals gave me to my children. *yes, i still want more kids..i'm thinking 2 more*

I went to watch simpsons last nite with the hubs and it was funny to the bone. would love to watch it again but i think this time just the dvd... but i wouldnt mind watching it again on the big screen. It was just hilarious. Last week we watched harry potpot but it wasn't as good as I expected it to be. damn it. now i have to read the book. i reckon there were just too many bits and pieces that were left and well it was pretty obvious and the person sitting next to me on my right was telling me what parts were missing and that sucked.

i've finally decided to work again and will take the job offer in Bandar. So that means I will be back living in Bandar. ooh... life.. =) joyous one. although, i love my house now. its peaceful and nice and so close to town and the beach and the playground where i want my baby to play when he grows up.

decisions decisions decisions. one that we already know the answer to but difficult to make.

im sad. do not ask why. but i am. i do not like feeling this way, it affects how i treat my baby and I do not like it. i want to be back to my normal self. I love my baby so much.

sorry i needed to ventilate.