I love this shot!

I was looking at some random pictures from a friends site. *sorry nanings I took some of your pics* it was our *mine and helbes* trip to the philippines. It was from our reunion with the others there. Sad to say we didn't really meet them all kse most of them had their appointments or watever excuse they made...hehe ;)


Caby, moi, nannings and michelle


marck, melvin, kb, and boo



Us again. at the club this time

Our matadoe moment!


I was already trying to be nice to him and this is what he does to me!


Our CK ad


The Fantastic 4


These are just some of the pictures that me and my camwhore friends have taken...i swear there are tons more..as in super tons more! They are all on my multiply but sad to say I had to put everything for my contacts only and well if you aren't and really wants to see them ask me.

I've been pretty tied down. Well I try to be.

I finally watched V for vedetta, its was good however, I think it wasted my boos money just to watch it at the movies, should have just gotten a dvd and watched it at home. It didn't bore me. I guess I am just not up for those movies. I've always been a diehard romantic and thus loves watching romantic movies or scare myself off in the movies watching some scary flick where I can hug my boo and get the TLC I love getting from him.

I chilled with levv, chinx and cheche the last nite...and this I reckon we shall only see each other like after a couple of days rather than everyday..at least we wont feel restless when we see each other.

I miss my boo. I miss my siblings and I miss my old friends.

*boonzz...I love u. Thanks.

**mitch. i love you too.. Thanks as well.

Sometimes I wonder if the friends that i am always with are my real friends or are they just friends just because they need you. Somehow now I'm hurting. Not because of him but because of other people. Sometimes, I think that my real friends are actually the friends whom I don't often see but when I talk to them its seems like we've never been apart. I miss my old friends.

im hurting.

Ive never hurted this much before.

Ive never cried the whole night non stop.

I need help.

I want to hate you but I love you so much.

I cant fucking post a picture..Ive been tryin to upload a picture since forever. maybe later.

Life can be good at times yes?? Well last nite me and my boo had a good talk. and yes, its all good. ive finally stopped crying. I think. It hurts to cry and yes, hurt hurts. Life can be a bitch but then after that obstacle everything is all good again. Like me and Helbe. It hasn't just been good. It has been a fucking rollercoaster, and if I ever have to do it again, I definitely will, that is if it is him again. It is a good rollercoaster.

There are just days that you feel you need the freedom where you need not tell another person what you are goin to do and what you want to do or just whatever. I know how that feels and as I was talking to my man last night, I realised, I know what he was talking about how there are days when you feel like single not because you do not love the person you are with but because you like that chase. The chase where you can look at someone else and get her phone number or have a date without feeling guilty because you are in a relationship. I have had that feeling and gawd! it just...well that's when you actually realise how much you love the person that you are in a relationship with.

I know I am ranting again. Self-control. Boo was telling me that I should have some kind of self-control. Well, honey, thats why I have you. haha...another rant.

I still cant fucking upload a picture!!!

Im depressed.

the story of us

Love is just lust in disguise, and lust fades, so you damn well better be with someone who can stand you - The Story of Us.

I love love love that movie. It is such a great movie..

...we're an us. There's a history here, and histories don't happen overnight...

Look, this is ridiculous, we love each other, all couples go through this, let's give it another try.

There are some hurts that you never completely get over. And you think, I don't know, that time will diminish their presence - an-an-and to a degree it does - but, ah... it still hurts. Because, well... hurt hurts.

People *change* over time - you've got to expect that.... the only way a relationship works is if people grow and change together!

Well this is just some of the quotes that I like from that movie..I was just watching it and I thought I should share it with you. Its a good eye opener to alot of things...a marriage is not just a marriage...its a whole new world.

*I love you boo*


In the past couple of days, i have cried so much that I feel like my eyes are just going to pop out anytime soon as argh....i'm stressed. I do not know wat to do.

*On a more lighter note* I finally saw qeelz and talked with her..thank god for having friends like her. After church yesterday I had dinner with my ma and my friends and then sent ma home and went out again. *i love my mom* While I was out with some of my friends. I realised something. They are the friends that listens to you....GOD!...thank you for friends like them. Im seriously messed up now. I think I really need something to do cos doing nothing makes me so blah with my life. It sucks! I want something to do! I swear, when I am not doing anything I tend to think of all negative things. I am just a pessimist that I am always thinking so fucking negative and its starting to kill me. I want to know but I cant because Im scared. <<--- Very random i know. Dont care.

I was just looking at some lyrics from a song that I heard from the Movie story of us. I love love love the lyrics.

(I) Get Lost

by Eric Clapton

I'm sorry.
Why should I say I'm sorry?
If I hurt you,
You know you've hurt me too.

But you get lost inside your tears,
And there is nothing I can do,
'Cause I get lost inside my fear
That I am nothing without you.

You're angry.
Why shouldn't you be angry?
With what we've been through,
Well I get angry too.

Chorus

'Cause I am nothing without you.

Why should we have taken so long
To be looking inside of our mind?
Everything we tried went wrong.
Are we worried 'bout what we might find?

I'm sorry,
But can I say I'm sorry?
If I hurt you,
You know it hurts me too.

Chorus

And you get lost inside your tears,
And there is nothing we can do,
'Cause I get lost inside my fear
That I am nothing without you.

'Cause I am nothing without you.
And I am nothing without you.
'Cause I am nothing without you.
'Cause I am nothing without you.


*Soph...I love my hair too..haha.. Love u babes*

the nite out

so last nite me and chinx went to pick up eleven and manuel from work and from there we went to the mall to do some sight seeing...boredom led us to do this. however, it actually turned out to be pretty productive. *to wat i think*

we had dinner at kfc, then headed to the cinema to watch Nanny McPhee a very well.. childish movie with s lil' output for adults. well there are some lessons to be learnt as well right chinx??. there's that If you need me but don't want me I will be there but If you want me but do not need me then I shall be gone, well that is one lesson, the other one, people would definitely do anything for money! ooo..that is soo effing true. I swear it is...However, there is one that I am still trying to figure out about the movie. What happened to Nanny McPhee when the kids did lesson 1??... i mean lesson 2, she lost a mole..lesson 3, she lost another mole...then lesson 4 her skin became better and lesson 5 was her teeth and her figure..so wat is lesson 1??..can someone please tell me...

Anyways..after the movie we headed to chill to talk about the movie and wat i was going on about that lesson shyt..and haha..eleven and chinx took some souvenir..*no comment on that one* well while we were at chill we talked, we laughed and wat we do best...we take pictures.. okay the picture is in my multiply. so just click away, if you can be bothered..haha.. I love you guys..

today??..well i was planning to meeting the beau since he is in town..but we shall see how it goes. I really want to meet him cos I miss him dearly!...i want want want my booboo now now now!... yes, I am an effing demanding girlfriend. *joke*

much much love

the new layout??

well i just randomly thought about getting a new layout and here it is..i think its okay not that hot but it shall do until boredom strikes again.

i just realised its been almost a full month since the last time i blogged here. hey. its not like anyone actually reads this. I do not care. this is where i put how i feel and all that bullshit.

oo..ive finally did something neat to my hair...i had it dyed auburn last sunday and yesterday i had highlights placed on them. i think its pretty sweet. my mom likes it. gosh. i miss those bonding sessions with my mom, irregardless of shopping or going to the salon or watever..i just miss bonding with her. i love love love my mom. she rocks. i know the ups and downs but hey watever happens she is and will always be my mom. i love love love her.

yesterday, i thought of actually just sleeping the whole morning..but apparently around 11ish...my boyfriend arrived at my crib without telling me. *surprised*. i seriously did not want to get out of bed. i was over at my parents bed sleeping when the bell rang and i seriously could not be bothered getting out of the bed just to get the door so my daddy got it and he told me helbe was there i was like 'yeah, watever dad..i know u just want me to get off my lazy ass'..but then my dad went out of the room again and i heard my boos' voice and i frantically jumped out of bed...gawd! he just loves to surprise me...then i hugged him for like forever..cos i swear i was still dead sleepy...*don't blame me...i got off the phone talking to my boo at around 3 in the morning* then we went out for brunch at misato. i just love love japanese... then walked around mall looking for shades for him..couldnt find anything that he likes or that actually suits him. so we went to yayasan and got the shades there...then home sweet home.. he had to go back to kaybee *i hate those times* hes got work today.

when i got home mommy was like lets go to the salon i want to get my hair done. so im like umm..okay..wen?...shes like now...okay..lets go..hehe..i love the salon with my mom..i get to do anything and everything..hehe...well i think watever they did to my hair at the salon, i think its sweet..as i've said earlier. okay i'll just post a vanity picture of myself with the new hair-do..hehe I told u its pretty sweet...hehe...i shall be changing it..hope soon..hehe..like next month..haha... i love my hair for now though..hehe...*thanks to my mommy*

okay...ciaos...

*oo..i shall add the rest of the side thingys when im dead ass bored.*

much love to everyone..