I'm sick. Literally. Being pregnant and 5 more weeks to go and is down with the flu is not good. Thank God my weekly check up is tomorrow. I shall see if the doctor will give me something to ease my flu. I swear, the most annoying sickness anyone can have is flu. I seriously don't mind having the cough but the flu?... it's just plain annoying. I hate it having a nose block and can't breathe properly and thus having to sniff like an effing dog. *damnnit*. I can't blow it out cos nothing seems to come out. *argh*

Anyways, Back at my 'rents crib again just to be with my momma. I swear, I do not know what to do without my momma. I love love her to the muchos. She makes me smile. Well since I'm here, I decided to go out with some of my loves. They make me smile too. I need my weekly dose of HUGE HUGE smile on my lovely face. *note: just 'cos you are pregnant, that doesn't mean you are ugly, cos you are still very very BEAUTIFUL* My hubby makes me smile too but everyone else makes me have this huge smile on my face.

I want to post pictures. I can't. my hubby took my card reader and my laptop. Therefore, I am stuck on my 'rents pc. damnit! I want to see my pictures. Next week then.

I got this on friendster. I'm bored. Its early and the show i'm watching is starting to bore me.

THE YEAR 2007

1. Will you be looking for a new job?
~> not yet.

2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
~> no no no. unless just they just want to be a friend.

3. New house?
~> nope

4. What will you do different in 07?
~> Be a mother, a better wife and be more responsible.

5. New Years resolution?
~> don't do no resolution.

6. What will you not be doing in 07?
~> err....

7. Any trips planned?
~> christmas. Philippines with my family

8. Wedding plans?
~> did that last year.

9. What's on your calendar?
~> the birth of my child

10. What can't you wait for?
~> the birth of my baby

11. What would you like to see happen different?
~> err??

12. What about yourself will you be changing?
~> yes

13. What happened in 06 that you didnt think would ever happen?
~> err... I don't know.

14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
~> I've always been nice to people I care about. If I wasn't nice to them, I didn't care *shit* about them.

15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 06?
~> maybe. maybe not. depends.

16. Will you start or quit drinking?
~> im an occasional drinker.

17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
~> Its very good already. I love love my family.

18. Will you do charity work?
~> Do I have the time??

19. Will you go to bars?
~> do they even have them here in Brunei?... but yes, if there is one.. haha.

20. Will you be nice to people you dont know?
~> I just give them a smile.. that's me being nice.

21. Do you expect 07 to be a good year for you?
~> yes

22. How much did you change from this time last year til now?
~> a lot.

23. Do you plan on having a child?
~> yes. I am gonna have one soon. excited.

24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
~> but of course.

25. Major lifestyle changes?
~> i have my own family to take care of now. thats a MAJOR MAJOR change.

26. Will you be moving?
~> I moved last year

27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in 07 that happened in 06?
~> err... i loved whatever happened last year. It was a great year.

Its 9am again and I am up. Damn it. My sleeping habits are just all over the place. For some odd reason, whenever I am at my parents place, I wake up early and start doing chores. But when I am at my crib, I wake up almost lunch time and still bum around until I get hungry. What is wrong with me? hmm.... Help?? I'm guessing I am just not used to sleeping alone anymore. I'm so used to waking up or turning around and seeing my hubby next to me. It feels weird sleeping without him. I know we have been married for only a short time but when you get so used to something like sleeping with someone everyday, it just feels weird when you sleep alone, even if you have a cute lil teddy to sleep wth.

Ooo..the survey after this post was taken off beshs' site. Can you tell my boredom?

Emotion Survey
HAPPY!
What song currently makes you really happy?:	JOJO "too littl, too late"
Who makes you the happiest?:	my hubby, besh, levv and ferds, mi familia
Are you happy right now?:	yesh
What food makes you happy?:	chocolates.
Do you smile a lot?:	Yesh
How many times did you laugh yesterday?:	err...I didn't count
What friend is the happiest that you know of?:
SAD =[
Do you get depressed easily?:	Kinda.
What's the most depressing song you know of?:	"break it to me gently"
Are you really upset right now?:	nope
Have you lost anyone friendship-wise?:	yesh.
Have you cried this month?:	nope.
Do you talk to anyone when you're upset?:	Yes.
Are you considered "emo"?:	yes.
Do you have any mental disorders?:	not that I know of =P
Does depression run in your family?:	No! we are a happy family...
ANGER >[
Do you get pissed off easily?:	Nope. I still look at the bright side of everything.
Who has angered you last?:	Someone close. well I thought she was close.
Have you ever wanted to literally KILL someone out of pure anger?:	nope. im not a criminal. not yet though.
Do you have any anger management problems?:	Nope.
Do you get physical when you're mad?:	Yes.
Do have a rough time getting along with family or parents?:	Nope.
When was the last time you got into a fight (verbal OR physical)?:	err. I don't even remember.
Is there a constant battle between you and someone else?:	No
Do you hate people easily?:	Nope. I dislike. Hate is such a strong word.
Love ♥
Do you believe in love?:	Definitely.
Are you single/taken/confused/swinger?:	Married
Do you hold hands when you are dating someone?:	oh yes. I love holding his hands. I feel so secured.
Do you like to date?:	Yes. Yes. Yes.
How long was your longest relationship?:	forever. (which is now)
How many boy/girlfriends have you said "I love you" to?:	Don't count.
Do/Did you mean it?:	I always mean it when I say I love you.
Are you happy about your love/relationship status right now?:	Yes. Yes. Yes. Definitely Yes.

It's 9am. It's effing early and well i've already done my chores for the day. (well, most of it). And since I havn't really done a proper blog, I decided to actually type one out.

Yesterday, was one of the most fantastic days i've spent with my beshies..I mean, it's been THAT long since we actually got together and spent half the day talking about ourselves and well others who pass by *wink, 'sorry, I hit your head'* the best part, the moment we arrived home, we were still chatting. I missed that, it was something we used to do. It was like our conversations are just never ending. I guess it is true when they say that its the quality of the friendship that we have and not the quantity of friends. I mean, I seriously do not need anymore friends, there isn't any need for that. I love my friends and I do not care if I can count them in my hands, they are still my beshies.

Besh aka chika, I've known her since well since we were toddlers, our dads works together, we used to do everything together then she left and when she came back, everything is still all the same. I mean, I can still remember we used to go to each others houses and play barbie or rollerskate or just play with make up. The best part of it then was going to dance practices together and just well dancing until we are dead tired (I miss those days). And now, we can spend the whole day just drinking well anything under the sun and just talking and reminiscing and also well just being quiet (yes! we are capabe of that too).

Levv..well what can I say, It all started with. *damn, he's cute....and well now...(not gonna comment, you seriously don't want me to)* haha.. he's just a great friend that I love to hang with and well get acquainted on what's probably happening in bandar..well more like what's happening to the people we know and well just him updating me and all.

Our outing yesterday was a day of just updating each other, basically, since well, we havn't actually been out together..together for a long long time..I go out with them individually but not the same time, its just that we are always just busy with our lives. Well actually just them, as for me, I am not in town and when I am only one of them is available and well I try to spend as much time with them as I possibly can take.

Yesterday, while we were chatting our lives away to each other, I was updated with what people where spreading about me, well I guess all I can say, some people just can't be happy for me. I mean, don't be jealous and all but i can't make all of you happy. I'm sorry but I know that I am a whole lot prettier that you. I mean, I thought I didn't have ugly friends, well I was indenial. I have a friend who looks like you. I am not the only one who thinks you are FUGLY, a whole lot of people thinks that too. Face it, you are never gonna be pretty unless of course you go for a facial surgery or something. (YES, I can be mean.) I guess one of reasons why you can't be happy for me is because you can't find someone who is like my hubby. Don't be jealous honey, he's just close to perfect and we love each other. Right now, I'm feeling sorry for you not for me because I am living the life that I have always wanted to live.

just pictures...

I'm bored. It's late. I'm tired but I can't sleep. Therefore, I will just post pictures from the last couple of months. It will show how FAT i've grown. But I am loving my pregnancy... hehehe....

my long lost friend

My adorable god-son, bibo

a week before christmas...

Christmas eve '06

New Years eve... being the HOUSEWIFE

New Years. Our first picture of the new year. TIREDNESS.