work is...

I'm not enjoying work anymore. I'm not happy here anymore.

Ok, Maybe just maybe I am over reacting because I'm tired and I'm lazy.

I really think I need to get pregnant soon (gosh! like it is that easy.) I really miss being pregnant and being pampered by everyone. Okay, I know I sound like a brat but hey, Its nice to bring a child in the world.

What i love the most about being pregnant is when the child comes out and only wants you. Just like how Caleb is now. All he wants is just to be with me and Helbe. Whenever he sees us he does not want to be with his maid anymore. This is what makes me feel like I did something right. THANK GOD!

I miss my son. He is now in KB with my in-laws. I think its good that he gets to spend time with both our families. My side and his. He gets two different cultures at the same time. But now I wonder when he grows up which culture will he want to follow. Which principles will he want. The Filipino or the Dusun. All I want is for him to know both. But then after a while, I'm thinking what if when he grows up he will have mixed feelings towards the cultures. OMG! I know I am thinking ahead.

I miss being a housewife, where I will cook, clean and be loving to my husband and my son. I miss just staying at home.

*This is a random post. Do not mind me. I am ranting*