Our matadoe moment!


I was already trying to be nice to him and this is what he does to me!


Our CK ad


The Fantastic 4


These are just some of the pictures that me and my camwhore friends have taken...i swear there are tons more..as in super tons more! They are all on my multiply but sad to say I had to put everything for my contacts only and well if you aren't and really wants to see them ask me.

I've been pretty tied down. Well I try to be.

I finally watched V for vedetta, its was good however, I think it wasted my boos money just to watch it at the movies, should have just gotten a dvd and watched it at home. It didn't bore me. I guess I am just not up for those movies. I've always been a diehard romantic and thus loves watching romantic movies or scare myself off in the movies watching some scary flick where I can hug my boo and get the TLC I love getting from him.

I chilled with levv, chinx and cheche the last nite...and this I reckon we shall only see each other like after a couple of days rather than everyday..at least we wont feel restless when we see each other.

I miss my boo. I miss my siblings and I miss my old friends.

*boonzz...I love u. Thanks.

**mitch. i love you too.. Thanks as well.

Sometimes I wonder if the friends that i am always with are my real friends or are they just friends just because they need you. Somehow now I'm hurting. Not because of him but because of other people. Sometimes, I think that my real friends are actually the friends whom I don't often see but when I talk to them its seems like we've never been apart. I miss my old friends.

im hurting.

Ive never hurted this much before.

Ive never cried the whole night non stop.

I need help.

I want to hate you but I love you so much.

I cant fucking post a picture..Ive been tryin to upload a picture since forever. maybe later.

Life can be good at times yes?? Well last nite me and my boo had a good talk. and yes, its all good. ive finally stopped crying. I think. It hurts to cry and yes, hurt hurts. Life can be a bitch but then after that obstacle everything is all good again. Like me and Helbe. It hasn't just been good. It has been a fucking rollercoaster, and if I ever have to do it again, I definitely will, that is if it is him again. It is a good rollercoaster.

There are just days that you feel you need the freedom where you need not tell another person what you are goin to do and what you want to do or just whatever. I know how that feels and as I was talking to my man last night, I realised, I know what he was talking about how there are days when you feel like single not because you do not love the person you are with but because you like that chase. The chase where you can look at someone else and get her phone number or have a date without feeling guilty because you are in a relationship. I have had that feeling and gawd! it just...well that's when you actually realise how much you love the person that you are in a relationship with.

I know I am ranting again. Self-control. Boo was telling me that I should have some kind of self-control. Well, honey, thats why I have you. haha...another rant.

I still cant fucking upload a picture!!!

Im depressed.

the story of us

Love is just lust in disguise, and lust fades, so you damn well better be with someone who can stand you - The Story of Us.

I love love love that movie. It is such a great movie..

...we're an us. There's a history here, and histories don't happen overnight...

Look, this is ridiculous, we love each other, all couples go through this, let's give it another try.

There are some hurts that you never completely get over. And you think, I don't know, that time will diminish their presence - an-an-and to a degree it does - but, ah... it still hurts. Because, well... hurt hurts.

People *change* over time - you've got to expect that.... the only way a relationship works is if people grow and change together!

Well this is just some of the quotes that I like from that movie..I was just watching it and I thought I should share it with you. Its a good eye opener to alot of things...a marriage is not just a marriage...its a whole new world.

*I love you boo*


In the past couple of days, i have cried so much that I feel like my eyes are just going to pop out anytime soon as argh....i'm stressed. I do not know wat to do.

*On a more lighter note* I finally saw qeelz and talked with her..thank god for having friends like her. After church yesterday I had dinner with my ma and my friends and then sent ma home and went out again. *i love my mom* While I was out with some of my friends. I realised something. They are the friends that listens to you....GOD!...thank you for friends like them. Im seriously messed up now. I think I really need something to do cos doing nothing makes me so blah with my life. It sucks! I want something to do! I swear, when I am not doing anything I tend to think of all negative things. I am just a pessimist that I am always thinking so fucking negative and its starting to kill me. I want to know but I cant because Im scared. <<--- Very random i know. Dont care.

I was just looking at some lyrics from a song that I heard from the Movie story of us. I love love love the lyrics.

(I) Get Lost

by Eric Clapton

I'm sorry.
Why should I say I'm sorry?
If I hurt you,
You know you've hurt me too.

But you get lost inside your tears,
And there is nothing I can do,
'Cause I get lost inside my fear
That I am nothing without you.

You're angry.
Why shouldn't you be angry?
With what we've been through,
Well I get angry too.

Chorus

'Cause I am nothing without you.

Why should we have taken so long
To be looking inside of our mind?
Everything we tried went wrong.
Are we worried 'bout what we might find?

I'm sorry,
But can I say I'm sorry?
If I hurt you,
You know it hurts me too.

Chorus

And you get lost inside your tears,
And there is nothing we can do,
'Cause I get lost inside my fear
That I am nothing without you.

'Cause I am nothing without you.
And I am nothing without you.
'Cause I am nothing without you.
'Cause I am nothing without you.


*Soph...I love my hair too..haha.. Love u babes*

the nite out

so last nite me and chinx went to pick up eleven and manuel from work and from there we went to the mall to do some sight seeing...boredom led us to do this. however, it actually turned out to be pretty productive. *to wat i think*

we had dinner at kfc, then headed to the cinema to watch Nanny McPhee a very well.. childish movie with s lil' output for adults. well there are some lessons to be learnt as well right chinx??. there's that If you need me but don't want me I will be there but If you want me but do not need me then I shall be gone, well that is one lesson, the other one, people would definitely do anything for money! ooo..that is soo effing true. I swear it is...However, there is one that I am still trying to figure out about the movie. What happened to Nanny McPhee when the kids did lesson 1??... i mean lesson 2, she lost a mole..lesson 3, she lost another mole...then lesson 4 her skin became better and lesson 5 was her teeth and her figure..so wat is lesson 1??..can someone please tell me...

Anyways..after the movie we headed to chill to talk about the movie and wat i was going on about that lesson shyt..and haha..eleven and chinx took some souvenir..*no comment on that one* well while we were at chill we talked, we laughed and wat we do best...we take pictures.. okay the picture is in my multiply. so just click away, if you can be bothered..haha.. I love you guys..

today??..well i was planning to meeting the beau since he is in town..but we shall see how it goes. I really want to meet him cos I miss him dearly!...i want want want my booboo now now now!... yes, I am an effing demanding girlfriend. *joke*

much much love

the new layout??

well i just randomly thought about getting a new layout and here it is..i think its okay not that hot but it shall do until boredom strikes again.

i just realised its been almost a full month since the last time i blogged here. hey. its not like anyone actually reads this. I do not care. this is where i put how i feel and all that bullshit.

oo..ive finally did something neat to my hair...i had it dyed auburn last sunday and yesterday i had highlights placed on them. i think its pretty sweet. my mom likes it. gosh. i miss those bonding sessions with my mom, irregardless of shopping or going to the salon or watever..i just miss bonding with her. i love love love my mom. she rocks. i know the ups and downs but hey watever happens she is and will always be my mom. i love love love her.

yesterday, i thought of actually just sleeping the whole morning..but apparently around 11ish...my boyfriend arrived at my crib without telling me. *surprised*. i seriously did not want to get out of bed. i was over at my parents bed sleeping when the bell rang and i seriously could not be bothered getting out of the bed just to get the door so my daddy got it and he told me helbe was there i was like 'yeah, watever dad..i know u just want me to get off my lazy ass'..but then my dad went out of the room again and i heard my boos' voice and i frantically jumped out of bed...gawd! he just loves to surprise me...then i hugged him for like forever..cos i swear i was still dead sleepy...*don't blame me...i got off the phone talking to my boo at around 3 in the morning* then we went out for brunch at misato. i just love love japanese... then walked around mall looking for shades for him..couldnt find anything that he likes or that actually suits him. so we went to yayasan and got the shades there...then home sweet home.. he had to go back to kaybee *i hate those times* hes got work today.

when i got home mommy was like lets go to the salon i want to get my hair done. so im like umm..okay..wen?...shes like now...okay..lets go..hehe..i love the salon with my mom..i get to do anything and everything..hehe...well i think watever they did to my hair at the salon, i think its sweet..as i've said earlier. okay i'll just post a vanity picture of myself with the new hair-do..hehe I told u its pretty sweet...hehe...i shall be changing it..hope soon..hehe..like next month..haha... i love my hair for now though..hehe...*thanks to my mommy*

okay...ciaos...

*oo..i shall add the rest of the side thingys when im dead ass bored.*

much love to everyone..

shopgirl/eating out

its 2:30am and I am still not fucking fast asleep. I swear there is something wrong with my body clock, that is if it still fucking exist. I hate this.

I have to wake up by 6:30 to send my ma to work, then pick her up noontime. The whole day today, I was just driving for the family, mostly my ma. I dont mind, its just that it does get tiring and sometimes they just dont understand that.

I just finished watching shopgirl and eating out. Shopgirl, well. *yawn yawn* no comment. Eating out. Weird but incredibly good. I think people should watch eating out to actually understand gays. I know the one person who definitely will not watch it is my booboo. He just abso-fucking-lutely hate gays. I mean, the closest people to me are gay. No, some of them are still in the closet gay but they are gay. do not ask who. I love my gay friends, as gay.

I am currently watching Brokeback Mountain (Its another gay movie), from what I heard from a friend, it is actually good. I will ust watch and see.

The past few days, I have been a professional bum. No, I still havent found a job and Yes, I am NOT looking, well that is until last weekend. do not ask. It hurts.

I swear I just cant sleep earlier than 4am. I probably could, if I was THAT tired, but i never get tired. The only time I would wake up is at noontime or even later. If I do get up earlier, there has to be a really good reason. Just like today. fuck. I slept so late and I woke up at 6-fucking-am. gak! I tried getting more sleep but I just couldnt get more than 2 hours. I skipped lunch and dinner so that I could catch on my sleep. Yes. I do try to get enough sleep for my body. Lunch and dinner time were the only time that I can catch on my sleep. The rest of the day was spent driving for my family. no I am not complaining.

i swaer my sleeping routine is totally fucked up...its 2:30am..and I am still not a tiny bit sleepy...last nite i slept past 2-fucking-am..i need help!

valentines is just around the corner and I still havnt got a clue wat my booboo wants to do...he said he has planned something..but doesnt want me to know until valentines day itself...i havent gotten him a gift...his birthday is coming up as well..wtf??...argh! i hate this!

.OMG!!.

i swear i was just gonna freak out..my day started so so...until...gak!...i got caught by the police..i was driving past the speed limit..which is totally stupid..cos the limit is 100..and i was like 112?..hello 12?..and they wudnt let it go..argh...oh well...at least it wasnt my car...but fuck!..it was my fucking name..gak!...oh well..haha... ;) 50 bcks gone from johnrey..

so this is how it all started..

eleven picked my up frm the workshop cos i needed to send my car and he needed company to go to kb..so i joined him..he got tired of driving so i drove..then while we were on that stretch of bsb-kb...the police was like..you are over speeding...fuck!...gak!...haha..oh well...it totally freaked me out..then eleven totally calmed me down by saying i got caught...soooo many times here...phew...hehe.. oh well.. a lesson learnt today..dont drive fast...I wish!...hehe

love lots!

memoirs of a geisha

You Are 60% Abnormal

You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

damn. i didnt know i was THAT of an abnormal. not that it is a bad thing, but yea. abnormal? grr.. hehe.. so...okay..the past few days have been a bitch. my hubby is not around the country. hes somewhere in the same island though. come home to me soon baby. i need someone to talk to. (im a loner-fuck!)

i am sick and tired of this theme watever u call it. I will most probably change it. asap. if i dont end up sleeping soon. then I guess i shall do it today. not like anyone is interested in reading my rants.

i watch memoirs of a geisha today with my parents and some of their friends. it was a good movie. never thought it would be that good. but it was. damn. i do not want to be a geisha. i doubt i can be. but hmmm....thinks..hehe....baby??..hehe..joke joke. he wouldnt want me to. it was like during their time being a geisha is sooo WOW!...and entertainer. instead of a tv entertaining you..women who has painted their faces is a geisha. well u can definitely not call a prostitute a geisha. different category honey. hehe... ;) great great movie.


i miss my boyfriend. come back yeah?

pictures...hehe

me and my cute lik cousin jasmine..hehe my partner in crime

.very random.

...Your Heart Is Orange

Love equals unbridled happiness for you. You enjoy the wild ride of falling in love. And while the ride is fun for a while, you always get off once the thrill is gone. Your flirting style: Hyper Your lucky first date: Anything you need your passport for! Your dream lover: Is both daring and well grounded What you bring to relationships: Energy

What Color Heart Do You Have?

i can say that that is true..however...umm..bleh...im not gonna comment. I guess that was me then..but now its just a totally different story. Im not getting any younger... *love u hun*

the philippines!

OMG!!...i never thought the phils would be a blast...damn..i had the best time while I was there...

the clubbing at basement.. the fantab time with my friends from the past...gak!. i want to go back...now! bring me home now...wait-a-minute! my home is where my booboo is...okay rephrase...take me to the phils now!! me want!! hehe,,,,more pics will be posted...soon...once i get my pics uploaded..m just not bothered yet..hehe..grabed this pic from mommy anna..hehe...damnit me didnt get to meet all of them...but non-the-less..it was a fantab time..hehe...

the shopping from one mall to another...i know my booboo had a fantab time shopping..he was much more of a shopaholic that I was..but hey i still got to shop..the starbucks everyday..! i miss my starbucks...grrr...they really shud have starbucks here...really! i want starbucks! grrrr...

i just realisd my watchamacalit...umm..tagboard is gone..will fix it someday..i mean no one bothers readin so yeah...could not be bothered shitless...hehe.. ;)

next time

december 2005

It has been a month of a lot of happenings. I will not put all the details but here are some:-

• dec 17 - my brothers garden wedding which was sooo awesome..the only sad thing was that It was raining. Nonetheless it was sooo romantic. It was up in the mountains. I want to have my wedding there too *hint hint*
• dec 18 - my sisters babys christening. Baby Marc Andrew got baptized as well as my parents 30th wedding anniversary. For the christening we basically just went to the church for baptism then off to her hubbys crib for the latter celebration. 30th anniversary of my parents...had dinner at gerrys. food was great.
• dec 22 - the day I was supposed to go back to Brunei. did not happen as our car broke down. woot woot. hehe...so we ended up going to Baguio. which was soooo cold damnit.
• dec 23 - still in baguio. had nice time bonding with my mommy ditas and daddy chito and their grankids... ;)
• dec 24 - last minute shopping for xmas. which was totally unplanned for. church at 11, noche buena the minute we arrived home. it was sooo much fun as it has been a while since my whole family has celebrated christmas together with no one missing. We has exchange gifts and all that.
• dec 25 - christmas. went to the tolentino clan. spent the whole day there. then dinner at super bowl.
• dec-26 - still xmas celebration went to another tolentino residence. dinner then shopping at ilog for my last night
• dec 27 - early trip to clark pampanga for my flight back to kk then from kk fly back to Brunei
• dec 28 - spent the whole day with my boo boo. movie (king kong . it sucked BIG TIME).
• dec 29 - officially resigned from my job.

haha...till then..gtg...eleven is on his way here..bye...

going

Life has been nice. well thats for the past few days. I swear everyday there are fucked ups and downs..but hey I am still surviving all those shit.

Monday. my booboo arrived from bali. He seemed happy. I guess he enjoyed. thats good then. But then..hes sick. fuck. Tummy crams or something. not to worry. nurse matet is here. wooohoo!. stayed home a while then dinner at the mall. bought 2 movies then home. by 11 we were asleep. I know weird. *we were alone at home, my parents are back in the phils*

Tuesday. me and my booboo got up so motherfucking early. i skived work. 7:30am. like wtf? no work and we get up early. but hey we went back to sleep. got up at around 10ish then cooked breakfast for him. finished up with the movie that we were watching the night before. *I swear you guys should watch that movie. "Death to the supermodels" fucking hillarious man!* then went back to bed at ard 11ish. fuck. sleep the whole day! by the time it was 2, we were hungry again. so we decided to get out of bed take a shower and then off to gadong to pay off bills and get my atm card and of course lunch. then it was 5. fuck. time for him to go. gak! I do not want him to go!!!! oh well..life is a bitch. so he left. I stayed home and did the sex and the city marathon. again. at 9 i decided I needed to get out of the fuckin house. so i called some friends. left and went to gdg. it was slightly full. not to worry. haha. then tita lina called. so me picked her up. we chilled at chill. yes with my aunt. it was cool. i like it when she is around. i get to have free food! wooohooo!! *cheap ass* anyhoots. was supposed to meet someone. never did. then at midnight I went home. picked up my gran from my aunts then home sweet home.

Wednesday. work is a bitch! nothing exciting. I finally watched narnia.

fuck. this blog is gonna get so random!

I miss my boyfriend. Im flying off tonight. fuck. I want my boyfriend to come! shiets.. oh well

bye.

adorable...

i saw these cute pictures...I like...hehe. Can I please have the remote for christmas... joke baby..you know I love you the way u are.. ;)

...

Fashionista 61% Tastefulness, 56% Originality, 67% Deliberateness, 47% Sexiness

[Tasteful Original Deliberate Prissy] One is certain: you have great taste and plenty of ideas. You have clearly defined beliefs about what's good and what's bad in fashion but they are far from banal. Stylish and imaginative, you prefer to inspire admiration than to shock and you mostly succeed. Even if sometimes you'd like to have more courage to put on something absolutely outrageous you do great job in creating a unique look that others look up to. There is a possibility that you work in the fashion industry. If you don't, perhaps you should. The opposite style from yours is Bar Cruiser [Flamboyant Conventional Random Sexy]. All the categories: Fashion Enemy Bar Cruiser Kid Next Door Sex Bomb Hippie Kid Fashion Rebel Fashion Artist Catwalk God(ess) Librarian Sporty Hottie Office Master Uptown Girl/ Boy Brainy Student Movie Star Fashionista Glamorous Soul

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 58% on Tastefulness You scored higher than 53% on Originality You scored higher than 75% on Deliberateness You scored higher than 33% on Sexiness

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I just want to know who actually reads my blog. The only person I know who does is boonishness..I love that wuman!...so please...leave me a note or something if u do.

you are runing my fucking life

fuck you!...u fucking bastard...gawd...now u want me to be that...fuck u!...and everything is still the same.. damn u!...i just wish you go to hell like right now!!

**venting out!!

so a week has gone. time flew so fast. one more week and you too will be gone. fuck. I do not want you to go there. how many times did i tell you that. oh well. I guess I cant stop you. You will be away for one effing week. fuck. Who the fcuk am I supposed to depend on when you're gone? who am I gonna to cry to when you are gone? I know you will be back...but still baby a whole week without you is just....not right.

enough ranting. I have been uber busy with work. Luckily for the past few days, I go home to you, if you weren't here, I dunno what I would have done. Work has been motherfcuked stressful. thank god they aint here no more. fuck they were one hell of a group. shit. I need to get my well deserved rest. I swear I really do. I need it more than anything. I want to get a rest. Thank God for my wonderful parents who will be treating me to a trip to the phils then to kuala lumpur and singapore. but then again. that means i need some ka-ching. shiets. baby will be here only for like 3 days then i'm off to phils for my bros wedding, then to kuala lumpur. I will basically me away for 2 weeks. Im sorry honeybunch, I know how you hate it when I am away for too long. I promise I will be back here in your arms again as soon as I can. oooo...i'm getting all emotional. shiets. change mode.

Dinner at my aunts place was superb. fuck. I swear my appetite nowadays is just motherofyuletide big. I had a heavy dinner then had a drink again when I went out with izzah then for lunch time. It was heavy too...gak. I swear I feel so bloated. nyeh. I do not like :( oh well. I know I wil still look good. *gak* what is so wrong with me? shiets...okay...enough bullcrapping here.

Harry Potpot...i got that off kristeta...well it was okay for the first hour, then I just dont get it why they called it the goblet of fire when they only used it for choosing the names..then that was it. I mean i Know it wasnt supposed to lie, but like. what the motherofpotpot knows about the age thingy if some old dude places it there right?....and wasnt it so motherofyuletide obvious that madeye had something to do with the evil crap..i dunno...for me...i did not like this harry potpot..i like the harry potpot 1 and 2 and 3...oh well..its very disappointing. Next movie to watch zathura. hoping to catch it on big screen this weekend as well as just like heaven. Ive heard good reviews about these movies. so we will see.

In her shoes. I like the movie, but like the plot is weak same with chicken little. I love the shoes though...so perky, so pretty. I want a whole closet of shoes. Oh well. A sister knows better than to fuck her sisters booboo. Like hello..? She knew for a fact that her sister was dating this guy and there she opens the door half naked when she knew it was her sisters boy and she intentionally leaves the door open. DUH! guys are horny bastards! they will fuck whoever the see is giving them the initiative to fuck 'em. I know shes blond and all but still. I do not think all blonds are fucking dumb. Shes just like. grrr...Im annoyed with her. Her dad is another different story all together. So your mother is dead. that still does not mean that you can take the kids away from their grandparents. grrr...this movie is annoying. next topic please.

Your Birthdate: October 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate. You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken. And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted. Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved. Your strength: Your flair Your weakness: If you think it, you say it Your power color: Scarlet red Your power symbol: Inverted triangle Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

im sick.

Fuck it. i'm sick. i'm sick for like the nth time. i hate being sick. I was at the docs last satruday with my booboo..and I tell u..with the look on the face of those people in that fucked up clinic.."this couple is gonna have a baby"...wahhh....i just wanted to scream...Im not preggy..i just had my monthly withdrawal of disgusting blood! I was there as part of mybody was killing me. I had it checked a coupl oe months ago, the stupid doctor at the public hospi said that it was gastric then saturday, the stupid doctor at this private clinic said it was some kidney infection or some shit. see why i do not like doctors? they lie. fuck. they really lie. soon enough, I only have a couple of months to live and im gone. grrr...it gives me the shivers.

on a much much lighter note. I went mallin *window shopped* with theresa, then later on in the evenin we went to pick up manuel and went to jeps place..but then again..we just went there to pick up ferdie n some other peeps. Then went to pds for their rehearsal. i am definitely going to watch this concert of theirs. Its fun. I hope that girl does not sing. It is so not lawa at all... effa..it shud be you singing and not her. Yuck kali. so totally out of tune. Couldnt they get a better singer when there are lots of really good singers in that school. She isnt even pretty. Its not that I do not like her. Its just that it just doesnt suit her.

Sunday was a totally bum day. I woke up and it was already 1pm. I was like wtf? then only i realised my parents went to seria for the day. So i got some food for good ol me. Im under medication. then bummed even more..by around 4, I fell asleep. then fuck. mummy messages me telling me I have to get ready for church. hmm..oh well..then church then shopping...nyeh! i still cant find the perfect sandals for my dress...if i dont get it by next week. Imma make a gown for the wedding. haha..i do not care. Im just going to make a gown as I really cant find the perfect shoes.. :(

well toodles..i have work to do...**well tryin to wrk**

Intermediate You scored 85% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 73% Advanced, and 66% Expert!

You have a good understanding of beginner and intermediate level commonly confused English words, getting at least 75% of the beginner and intermediate level questions correct. This is a good score. Remember, these are commonly confused English words, which means most people don't use them properly. You got a respectable score. Thank you so much for taking my test. I hope you enjoyed it! For the complete Answer Key, visit my blog: http://shortredhead78.blogspot.com/.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 12% on Beginner You scored higher than 48% on Intermediate You scored higher than 2% on Advanced You scored higher than 19% on Expert

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its all about sex baby...

Have u guys heard that song?...i have no idea who sang it..but its really catchy...its all about sex baby, its all about you and me, its all about the good things and the bad things...hahaha...seriously if u listen to it, it is really catchy.

Anyhoots..took the day off yesterday so that I could spend some time with my booboo and also do some shit i've been meaning to do for like forever...so first stop breakfast at mcdonalds, then send mommy and jomai to wherever they were supposed to be then took a short nap with booboo at my crib. Lunch at swensens.. and yes! i do want to get that asst. manager work. fuck! Christine is so nice. I like her a lot!I want her to be my boss...*hint hint* hehe ;) Then after lunch, dropped by the office to get some shitney...then to the Philippine embassy to register myself as an Overseas Filipino Worker. Thats gay. i had to pay over a hundred dollars just to let them know that. so gay. So anyways, after all that sitney that I had to do there, I was so motherfather tired and baby was tired from driving me around..so we decided to get some rest...and so we did...woke up then went jalaning..I was supposed to get a haircut..never happened. Fcuk. I want a haircut from abby before she/he/it goes..i love the way she does my hair...oh well, ruby will still be around *hopefully*.

The office was so gay earlier. The fcuking internet didnt work and fuck, with my kind of work, the internet is the only wat to get any business done. haha. oh well..it seemed like a free day for all of us but hey without the internet i got to do a lot of *important* things. yup, I did. cos whenever theres the internet, there is a choice of doing watever I want from doing whatever I'm supposed to be doing. so yeah.

Fuck. my phone bill is B$200 shiets. I need to pay it. I need money!....

I better go and get some money...wer to get ahh... shiets..

The Maid of Honor Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLMf) Appreciated for your kindness and envied for all your experience, you are The Maid of Honor. Charismatic, affectionate, and terrific in relationships, you are what many guys would call a "perfect catch"--and you probably have many admirers, each wishing to capture your long-term love. You're careful, extra careful, because the last thing you want is to hurt anyone. Especially some poor boy whose only crime was liking you. Your exact opposite: Half-cocked Random Brutal Sex Dreamer We've deduced you're fully capable of a dirty fling, but you do feel that post-coital attachment after hooking up. So, conscientious person that you are, you do your best to reserve physical affection for those you respect...so you can respect yourself. Your biggest negative is the byproduct of your careful nature: indecision. You're just as slow rejecting someone as you are accepting them. ALWAYS AVOID: The False Messiah, The 5-Night Stand, The Vapor Trail, The Bachelor CONSIDER: The Gentleman, someone just like you. Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating. My profile name: akeelegna

i so totally forgot to show u peeps this..its pretty dont u think?...all these pictures were taken during my surprise birthday bash... ;) most of the pictures at my multiply.

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whattalife

i was thinking of a good title, I cant seem to think of one. damn! my brain needs to start workin and its almost 11. i'm gonna blame it on the rain. fuck. its been raining a whole lot this week~s. damnit. I was thinking of getting my car washed on saturday but like luckily I decided not to as it was raining like a bitch that afternoon. Then yesterday it was so motherfather sunny that i actually had a massive migrane, yes! i'm not used to soo much heat. I do get heat stroke too. Then today. fuck. I want to sleep in...its been raining since i-have-no-idea. I want my bed with my booboo in it.

randomly. Sometimes i browse through peoples blogs and its amazing how they really blog daily and its not ranting just like what i do but seriously blogging. Fuck. I need that skill. The only blogs that i actually read so very often is boonzzz, izzahs' and beelzzz and this other random person. I cant seem to open the blogs of friendster. Can someone tell me why please? I swear I need to get my links fixed. soon. When i find the time. well i have all the time but more like when I feel like figeting around this template thingy. I'm not so perfect in this. But i try. then only I ask for help~which is like *gak* all the time. ooo...i bought these cute driving shoes last nite...they are sooo pretty....not very feminine..but pretty. Then my mommy got me this cute dress for my brothers wedding. I swear she knows my size so well. She can get clothes for me even when Im not around and they fit perfectly. motherly instinct. haha. I still need shoes for that dress. I have a pair of cute sandals which can go with that dress but no. I want one that suits it perfectly. I do have to look good even if its not my wedding. Its still a family reunion. as in a huge ass motherfather family reunion in which I will meet people who are related to me whom I have never ever met in my whole entire FCuking life. Damn. I hate those. They just keep repeating how womanly i look now and how im no longer a baby and how im so lucky and shit like that. fuck man. oh well. what to do. family is family. Speaking of me looking more womanly. I was at Empire yesterday for work and I bumped into someone I know from the hotel and I haven't seen him in like yonks. So then when we did the usual greet he said I looked different??....
him:U look different...
me: me??..different??...different how?
him: u look more matured...
me: matured...hmm...is that a good thing or a bad thing?
him:...u look good....
somehow that talk got me thinking. damn...do i look old now?...oh well... :)

another new day

A couple of nights ago, I was watching chicken little with aaron and it was just an adorable cartoon, but hey! i would not watch it like all the time...no thank you. If we are talking movies, I would say...i'd watch madagascar over and over and over to get a laugh and little mermaid to feel in love but not chicken little. The preview was fucking good...i love the watch c.little dances. But on the movie itself, it is not as good as how I expected it to be. The beginning is okay but the rest of the movie is basically crap. So i do not suggest you spending cash on watching it on the big screen, just get the B$3 dvd and watch it in the comfort of your home.

work has been a bitch. its fun but a bitch. seriously, i would suggest you to work in a place where you are happy, where you do not have anyone just getting just because they cant vent it out somewhere. it just isnt good for you.

life has been great...wooohoo!!...i'm loving the fact that im being more of a brat as the day goes by. I know this is not good but hey, its fun. don't worry it wont be long and I WILL grow up. *soon, i hope*

randomly..i swear my blogs now are just so random. I put everything together. not like its I do not have a life or anything but basically, its just that i do not blog regularly and I just do not really like to sit in front of the computer and just type out everything. although, i realised that this is a good place to vent out. haha. nope. not many people will be reading this.. i do not care. ha! as i have stated, i am only venting out here and killing my time at work *well trying to kill my time at work*.

fcuk...can anyone tell me where i can get the fcuk parfum for men? i saw the hers' one but i want the one for him. I need that for a christmas present for him. FUCK. its almost christmas, i'm counting my days till christmas and my parents still hasnt decided on where they want to go. damnit! I told my mom about the discounted rate for london and shes thinking that. I want! but my dad wants to go to brisbane. dude its lik summer there...maybe some other time dad? yea? But i'm still persuading my parents to go to london.. I want I want I want!...hehe...*Wishing*

Christmas list. I need help on this.. can someone help mE? so the list goes to:-

• parents
• siblings (1 brother/1sister-in-law, 2 sisters and 1 brother-in-law)
• nephews and nieces
• baby helbe (i know wat to give him, i just need to know where to get it)
  
• close relatives
• godparents
• friends

Damnit! i just realised thats alot!. oh well..i better get started with that..hmm.. ;)

been a while...

So its been a while since i've last posted here. Hey. u can't blame me. I had to blog somewhere else. ha. the tagboard does not work. damnit! i want my links to work as well. help is greatly appreciated.

u can read my past blogs at my xanga account, even if i do not blog there either..well i do not blog. period.

this is very random. I know. i'm still getting used to bloggin. i read others blog. they kill my time. i need to kill more time. therefore, i blog. bleh.

bummer. i want the second season of desperate houswives on dvd. fuck. who has it. i doubt its out yet, but if ever. please do let me know. i want to watch.

Picture ~ i love that picture of me being so manja at my booboo...hehe..yes be jealous of my great relationship. I know u will be jealous of me again. oh well i cant help but be me. haha!

phew...almost there...

phew.....a couple more and i'm finally through the IB....damn...just a couple more weeks.....a week before term break...then back in school for 2 weeks...then off for my exams....everything seems to go so fast...damn....argh...


things I still have to do..

• music investigation
• maths coursework

everything else....all done...hehehe...well except my orals...but that should be fine...

then the exams...argh...oh well...

okays im off...back to work..

muahhuggers

so...a quiz

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

just because

just because im bored....hehehe.....

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful.In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

boredom.....

stressed....i need something to take my stress out... :(

:stressed:

i feel so stressed....

i want a new layout....

fuck....

i can't stand IB no more...cant wait til i'm done and im off to my homeland...well supposedly... ;)

argh...me and my boy are argueing endlessly...somehow it strengthens our relationship...but after a while it just gets on my nerves...i fucking hate it...but yeah...im getting used to it... :)

anyhoots...im supposed to be doing work as ive got due dates...and fuck...havent started on some yet...a list on what im supposed to have finished..

• english world lit
• maths portfolio
• design and technology portfolio

okay...now im really stressed....but im kinda glad too cos like ive done the others...and met my deadline for

• extended essay
• theory of knowledge essay

hehehe... ;) just the others..and im almost done....after the three...ive got

• business coursework
• spanish oral (march7th)
• english oral commentary (february 17th)
• musical investigation

damn...a lot before the end...and i just realised...ive only got less than 7 weeks of school left... :( then exams.... argh...stressful...

anyhoots...gots to go..classes...

BOONISH: im so so so so sorry....i love u wuman..will b there to send u off...dont worry...

hmm....

been way ass busy for the past few days....no wait...these past few weeks...haven't been going out much except with my boyfriend.....(nope...not helbe...but marc)...yesh....me and helbe are history(for now)....but im with marc...will give updates on him soonish....anyhoots..yeah school has been a drag as in a drag...been havin exams....finishing courseworks, essays and all that....damn...been way way busy....I need to get a life....fuck

life is such a bore

damn...i think my life is a bore that i have nothing to do but just type here......oh well....hehehe...a waste of my time...

recently...

-been spending a lot of time with helbe....my beau....just goin places...staying home...talking...
-been credit-less...damn...
-been working my ass out...
-been studying...wow!
-umm.....a lot more...

haha...havn't been out in a while...not my prob...just a busy woman....oh well....dats how life is... :)

okay...im out...wanna know more...just mail me...

matettolentino@hellokitty.com

:. i'm back!!! .:

so....im back from my holidays.....well sorta...will only be dropping in here once in a while...ots the exams now...so yeah....


anyhoots...my holidays.....a blast....just stayed in Brunei...but like had a total blast....


- met a couple of new people....saiful....hmm...a couple more...
- christmas was a blast...spent it with family and friends...*thanks to those who came*
- new year....hahah...the best ever....*muahhuggers to my baby*

those were a couple of highlights...bah...will blog more...if ever i feel like if...but as of now...im outs...

muahhuggers....

happy new year to everyone...

gots to go zzzzzz......

okay...for those of u who actually comes here to read my crap...all im gonna say is....ive gots to go.....

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

for a while...will be back as soon as the stress level ain't so high anymore....

demands of the IB is here....

muahhuggers to those of u....and milabshu all....

say what???

i dont get it whats with people....not that i care or anything.....but "darls this is my space...my life...i mean i know you dont like me and all you want to do is diss me...but darlin' you know what i dont care...'cos to tell you the truth...people like you make me even stronger...you are the ones who inspire me to be who i want to me!"


its sad how people love to diss and all....not that i dont do that...but its just that people can't keep to their own....have your thoughts..but dont bother tellin' cos no one wants to listen...sorry...i bet you...no one wants to hear your thoughts thats y....oh-so-sad!!!


hmmm......anyhoots...other than my new visitor....life is good...well not really....i'm dead ass tired....i mean i've been out and about almost nightly with the parentals...plus school work...and all that crap....but then the weekend is for the friends....hahaha....can't wait for the weekend...


last night...had this carolling practice with kids...and it was fun....not that i love kids but they were sooo cute....i cant wait for christmas...the best time of the year....gifts and all....hahaha....i like!


anyways....before this gets way ass long..better bounce...got work to so....toodle-loo...*muahhuggers*


oh...to you....get a life..and try enjoyin it....i pity people like you!

:.fuck this shit!.:

i hate that motherfather bitch so damn motherfather much!!!!


argh.......now my exeat...what next....suspension??...wtf??...i dont do no shit in this fucking school.....motherfather!!!....i hate her....sooo motherfather muchos......i am sooo gonna not live like this...this aint my life....this aint all....she is sooo gonna get everything she asked for.....argh...kill this mother father bitch!!!!!



suicidal...yes....but not for me!!!.....for her!!!....she thinks she knows every single fucking thing....i dont think so...you mother father bitch!!!

hmm...

i'm finally 19!!!.....OMG!!...i feel so fucking old......mother father!!!....oh well....


anyhoots...had a party...some ppl came and i sorta enjoyed myself...wont be bothered to type who came....then like around 12 ish...we had games...and we lasted till 4:30am...hahahaa.....neat neat.....enjoyed myself...


sunday...went out with geon, then out to church, then out to gadong to have a drink with ben and freddy....


monday....stayed home...did work...went to church...then to gadong with yennied bunzzz...then met up with ben and freddy again....


tuesday....school.....gadong....home.....church....yayasan...for some kids party at jollibee.....*yawn*...


cudnt be bothered to type everything....so...i'm out......and will be for a while...muahhuggers...

:. me and me .:

gak...last day of school for the mid-term break....but its like no fun at all...somehow i'd rather be in school rather than being at home...cos i simply can't work when im at home....*damn*


Things to do for the mid-term break:
1) world lit by saturday-tomorrow!
2) international day dance tonight! - patrol =(
3) party!
4) design and technology porfolio
5) extended essay 2nd draft
4) business coursework 2nd draft
5) homeworks!!


damn!....so damn much!....in just one week....argh...wonder what i'm going to do....oh well...anyhoots..this week has been an aight week...tuesday went out with jeff for a movie: Resident evil:apocalypse...i'm suggesting everyone should watch it if you've watched the 1st resident evil...its good....as in damn good...then after the movie we went to ogh to meet up with my sister and her bunch of mates....drank a lil' bit of alcohol then home sweet home with good rest....wednesday went out again with jeff and mye..the sister..went to the mall...she had to do something there...then ended up going to chill for a drink with tinette and jojo....the usual peeps i'm with..and its fun...and now the weekend...damn! how sad....can't wait for tomorrow where i can go drinking!!...yayeness...*lets drink to that*


okay...so imma be boucning for now...but will be back as soon as i can and if ever i survive the workload that i have for the following week....byess.....*muahhuggers*

:. plain ol me .:

Life is good.......just when i thought everything was going down....everything seems to get back to its place....yayeness *damn haven't typed that in ages......


anyhoots....last nite was a blast....we had a surprise party for me daddy...then like we invited a couple of people we know...and the basketball team...well players that we know...which is like the whole team....anyhoots....me and daddy went to send my mom to church then went off to get some gas...when we arrived home me sister had everyone ready for the party and all...everyone was there...and when we arrived everyone was singing happy birthday....aren't me and my sister the sweetest daughters...hahaha!!!....then the party started...and so fun we had...then everyone left....but like at 1ish mike b, mike g, nani, chris corbs and bob came back for a another round of yummy food....hehehe...too bad cant have much food... *soup diet - given by the doctor for a week* and so we were chatting until like the wee hours of the morning...sad mike g has to go....he's cute...he was tryina chat me up and get me to eat..but sad i already brushed my teeth and was ready for bed when they arrived...so i didnt eat..but we talked a bit...hes hilarious but i can't really laugh...my tummy (well part of it) hurts! anyhoots....when they left....i went straight to bed!....


and now...the weekend!....argh.....sad sad....no one to chill with anymore...chris aint here... =(...oh well....gotta get my sister to chill somewhere for the weekend.....ha!...and get some work done.....hehehe...well till next time...byeee....*muahhuggers*

:. nothing but me .:

haizzz....this sucks....not this...but this.....*i know you don't get me*


I'm still stuck in school still waiting for abang sufri...and hopefully off to see Princess Diaries 2....I so can't wait to watch it... =)


Last night...well can't say it was a blast...but i miss chillin' as in just chillin'...sittin' and drinking....talking about everything and anything....damn... me, my sister, ate tnet, kuya eugene and chris...were chillin' at my place...then chris left early....*tired..yawn yawn*...then about 1ish mike, corbs, nani, rodell, bobi and this other dude came to the house...now that is when we all started to chill....mike, nani, corbs and rodell are like good friends of ours who happens to be on holiday...well not exactly holiday but like here for the shell rimula basketball tourney....and they were being such sweeties by coming over last night for a drink....the night was long...but it was fun...laughs and all...but we then started to reminise about last year and the previous year....damn...oh well..times change...hahaha...*i moved house*


anyhoots....other than that...me and my sister have been watching the shell rimula basketball tourney....no, not cos of the guys but cos of the game...its good..and i mean damn good...*last year was better*....anyways....thats wats been occupying me...and well chillin' with chris...which reminds me...he's leaving lunch time tomorrow for sg. then for uk....argh...i am soooo gonna miss that guy....he is such a sweetie...


okay, before i bore like the whole lot of you....imma go now...so till whenever...hahaha....*muahhuggers*


to ma taggers :
[teta]....nope...its chris as in chris low...my godbrother...hahaha...the chinese dude who used to go to JIs...then moved to uk??but chris brown, i must say...hes hot....hahahaha....wish it was him...hahahaha *miss u lots wuman*
[izzah]...nope...not kris..but chris...when are u coming back here??? miss na kita...
[joenah]....i know.....miss u lots....*muahhuggers*

:. back in the game called love .:

gak.....


I THINK I'M IN LOVE!!!!


this is sooo not right....i'm feeling all these emotions right now....and like i don't know if its good but hell...i dont really care...i'm loving this fact....but yes...i'm stayin out of relationships...and thats a fact!....well for a while that is....hahahha


so...back to my life...i've been spending most of my time with chris....who just came back from uk...hotter than ever...i must add....damn...hahahaha.....but yeah...he's cool...a nice person to talk to...like all the time....we talk about anything and everything....other than spending most of my time with him...i've been in school...and home with my family....hahaha....spending quality time....*yeah right* nah....


so....hahaha....i'll blog...when i actually have something to blog about...but for now...my mind is blank...


Love me lots...hahaha....and love u all lots too..*muahhhuggers*

:.lunch hour sucks.:

argh.......figgin' argh.....LUNCH HOUR SUCKS!!!!

i swear...this is sooooo not me......i don't like what is happening to my friggin' life!....i miss my babyfarker....i was just goin' through my english lit text during my english class...and there i found her letter!!!!....argh....babybooonzzzzz.....i soooo need you down here in friggin' brunei!!!....gawd.....u know u are the only one who can help cheer me up and everything!....argh....i miss u....i miss him....i miss abgzzz.....i'm missing every one and no one knows it....oh well...not like they give a fuck!


i see the old people i used to hang with, the feelin aint just the same no more....u guys don't get it...u dont know what has been happening with me....ITS NOT MY FAULT!!!!! thank god yennie bunzz is back...i missed her too farkin' lots too...she was one of the few people who i can cry on to....gawd! i miss everyone who has walked in and out of my life recently....especially u!....i may not want to admit it but yes i miss u!!!...among all people but why you!....no not YOU!...but you! it irritates me 'cos everytime i want to do something, it would remind me of YOU!....argh, the malls, the places, the drinks! gawd!....no!!!!.....i hate this part!....i'm leaving but you are not! leave me alone!...i need that...i seriously do!!!! please !!!


alright, before i start gettin all irritated and all...and start to tear up again and reminise about my lovely past...i should go....but before that.....nina and nana....hi *muahhuggers*

:.back in school.;

2nd day back in school and it hasnt been as how i expected it to be....not hell...but better! i guess its cos i've done some work during the holidays...yes, i sat my ass down in front of my school work during the holidays.

anyhoots, life hasnt been that bad...a couple of ups and downs, but so far, i have been happy and the decisions that I have been making has been making me really happy. I know i have regretted some, but then again when i think of it, it aint worth regretting 'cos i know at least i have tried. =)

In the past 2 days, i have been in and out of the hospital, monday, was there for a check up then on tuesday, was there for blood test if i have annemia??? like me annemic?, i don't think so...but oh well, what the hell, never know. was so scared during the blood test....gak, but it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be so.....

Besides hospital and school, i have been getting some of my much needed sleeps both in the afternoon and at night...loving it! but somehow i am able to get some work done so its all good.....sad bit is, i dont have my laptop now...well i do but its at the hospital =( so i am stuck with my brothers pc which no one uses... =( i want my baby back!!! oh well another couple of days =)

taggers!!!
boonish:- i love u lots woman!!
kak cil:- will msg u asap....love u too....
iyra:- thanks for droppin me some <33 much needed =) <33 u lots too...

to everyone...*muahhuggers*

the past few weeks

Life isn’t as unfair as we think it really is. There are some things in life that is good but we think it really isn’t. There are some happenings in our life in which we don’t expect or don’t want to happen. For some reason, I, have been thinking about what has been happening in my life for the past few weeks.

It all started when I started to hang around my sisters and their friends. They are one unbelievable group of people that I know. These are the people who taught me to grow up; they taught me part of who I am today. I am grateful that they are my friends as well. I love the fact that they do not disregard because of my age. Yes, I am way younger than all of them and all of them are already working while here I am still in school and enjoying it. I was starting to hate school because of the workload but then to come think of it, I am pretty lucky that I’m still in school because I get to enjoy life as well.

So, this bunch of people that I have been out and about with most of the time are not workaholics but they make sure that their work is done, but are fun-aholics (if there is such word). They love to enjoy the pleasures of life *let’s drink to that*.

The best thing about being with them are the fact that when you are feeling depressed or whatever is putting your spirit down, someone is always there to cheer up whoever is down. There is always someone there anytime you need a friend. We always as in always make up occasions just so that we could enjoy each and everyone’s company. *anniversary, birthdays* There was never a time that I spent with them that I didn’t enjoy and I have never regretted the late night sleeping, the sessions, the f.ts’ , chilling, basically everything that we do.

I used to think that life is all about pain and suffering. Well sure, we do suffer as well but up to a certain point. We also enjoy life but when we do, we don’t usually realize that we are already enjoying our life and only realize it in the end. How sad is that? Oh well, all I can say is that whatever it is, just be happy and take things as they come and think of that future not just the present.

*this is for the menglait association* Thanks for everything!

they are the ones who have made me happy these past few weeks...thanks you sooo much....love u all lots and lots!!!

:. out and about .:

woooooaaaaahhh!!!! its been a while since i've blogged here. sorry! i've been uber busy with my life and when i get back home i'm uber tired already and so i tend to fall asleep! ha! what an excuse!

 
anyhoots! Last WEDNESDAY   me was out like practically the whole day! gawd....so tiring this whole week. I was out and about with my siblings and a couple of my sisters friends like the whole nite and that nite ended in the morning at like umm.....2am! Baby, Abg Lanny and Abg Farisan came and picked me up at like 8ish *i think* then we left for Boonish's place...then we were off to gadong to do some walking....hahahaha! after gadong it was ARENA time baby!.....we went to arena to meet up with my siblings and her friends. Original plan was to drop me off but no they stayed and played pool.....After arena, the guys dropped me off to CHILLs in gadong 'cos me siblings went there first and I just followed. Then HOME SWEET HOME we went after like 1am...hahaha...but eugene, tinette, bri, turk*dunno his name*, diman and lim came along to our place to do some booze drinking baby!....hahaha...and the morning ended at 2:30ish....

 
THURSDAY...got up at 8ish and left my crib at 9ish *umi, aisya and maya came to pick me up* and headed for the airport. We were supposed to meetup with boons at the time but she wasnt there yet but hadi was, so we went to express and ate. Then baby, abg lanny and abg farisan came and joined us. After a while BOONISH came and we were all 'we are not goin to cry' hahahaha....and so we didnt. After sending boonish off we *maya, aisya, baby, hads, abg lanny and  abg farsan* went off to gadong.....stayed there till lunch time then like before we left gadong Boonish messaged me that she was already in gadong. *missing u to the max darlin*  came home and did some bummin' around then like around 8ish diman came and picked me and my sisters up, went to riverview to meet up with hong then off to sugar and spice we went for dinner. Eugene and Tinette followed us after a while then off to gadong we went for pool *decided that arena was just no the place that nite* . The nite ended at around 12ish then home sweet home we went.

 
FRIDAY....a sooo boring day i tell u. Didnt do no nothing but bum around the WHOLE day!....gawd...i said i was gonna do some school work...maybe later! hahaha...then like at nite me and my parents went to gadong for some SHOPPIN....hehehe....bumped into a couple of people...and my baby, abd lanny, hads and abg lanny.  okay i am not mentionin any other names...'cos sooo not even important! Then like me was soo bored watched like a series of movies...gawd! how sad.....hmm....oh welsh....

 
and so thats how my week went!...hahaha.....bah im outs....*muahhuggers*

:. i'm feelin' so good .:

i said to myself i'd blog last night when i got home about how my day went and all...but nah.....was tired and I needed to do something better like reading my world lit text and so i did.


hahahaha.....random thinking here ;)


Tuesday - 20th July 2004

 
I was bumming, well tecnically bumming cos when i got up did my part of the chores then when mommy came home she told me to arrange these papers and so I did and now all i'm waiting for is the correct answers for me to be able to mark them :) hahaha....then around 5ish me and mommy went for a walk down the road then to the back of this school *dunno the name* we did a lil' bit of joggin'. I like!!! hehehehe....finally got some exercise for me! While joggin Aisyah dearest gave me a buzz and asked me to come over for dinner cos its like *supposedly* a farewell dinner for the boonie boonzzz, yes darls we loves u lots and lots :)


Came home took a quick shower...got bored so i actually fixed my hair...for what seemed the first time in umm......hahahaha....ages!! i dont fix my hair anymore! then umi and aisyah came and pick me up....dropped me off their place and they went off to pick my boy up from baz's place ;) Boonish came, then more people started to come. Finally DINNER.....i tell u this is one of the most yummiest food i had in a while....yummy berabis... ;)  I was practically eatin' soo much, but yeah had to watch what i eat. There were all sorts of food....and the yummiest dish was the pasta with scallops and prawns, the other yummy ones are salmon, mashed potatoes, prawns, chicken....and the desert!! damn...talking about food making me hungry...and i'm just waiting for my sister to finish cooking our roasted chicken for lunch...*yum yum*


Around 10ish Umi, maya, ben and Baby sent me home :)....home sweet home....by the time i arrived home, the family was just haing dinner. NO, I didnt join them but i sat down with them and talked :) then after dinner...mummy had the urge to go to the night market...and she had to drag me along.... haizz~ tired but it felt good to be spendnig time with the parentals once in a while....but when we got home she went all MENTAL...gak~ what is wrong with people nowadays....sooo mental~ not good noh!


So that was my day yesterday~ Monday was boring like hell...so wont even be bothered to talk about that! And today, I'm not even sure what i'm going to do except i'll be goin out with my mommy later when she gets home, or something that's what she told me last nite :) Then I'll prolly get back to more *pukes*Studying!


*thought of the day*
I'm feeling so good, no reason for me to feel good but i just do! I feel loved! *muahhuggers*
 
 

:. WOOOOO.: /added

wow.....hehehehe....a new whatchamacallit??....hehehehe...i think this is soooo cool..... (say what???)..nyahahahha..
 
 
boredom.....haizzz....random post here....
 
 
currently chatting with beelz and izzah, two my closest friends..but they dont know each other...anyhoots..im just waiting for time to pass.....gak....boredom..and the weather is soooo nyaman to sleep in but i just woke up....like 3-4 hours ago....so...umm.taking the idea of sleeping offf......NOOO.....no more sleepin in the afternoon...m gonna get ma ass working...promise!!
 
 
i've actually started on some of my school work...(what-am-i-thinking??)...finished my research for my business coursework and for my extended essay...starting to re-read my world lit texts and other texts, started on my maths....GAWD....i don't do work...nooo...not me!! but i am....hehehhe...somehow i'm shooo proud of myself...
 
 
SAD....thats what i'm feeling now...gawd, i just hate it when i have to send my friends off and Boonish is leaving me already :( hmph!!....dun like as in dun like!!! then kak cil  is leaving again....but i know she'll be back soonish..ya kak?? haizzz...life...
 
 
YESTERDAY.....saturday...went out with jet in the afternoon....bonded with my long lost neighbour...hahaha....then met up with baby and hadz, chilled and walked around for what seemed ages, bumped into people...the usual gadong faces....boredom!!...then i found out that i was literally stuck there, gawd! but then eventually someone came and picked me up to go to ate annie's birthday bash in naja's house...overflowing of alcoholic drinks, overflowing of smokes....ordinary ones :) hehehehe....i was kinda wasted...NOT!!! hehehe...i shoooo enjoyed my nite!! heheheh...then kak cil and abg sal slept over.and before we slept abg sal made us watch PONTIANAK...hell no!!..good thing i was like literally not watchin the movie....hehehhe...wud watch it wen i have someone to hug..but not last nyt :(....oh welsh... :(....
 
 
okay...me thinks this post is getting shooo long.... but who cares....
 
 
i'm sick!!!....i dont like.....down with fever and flu :( not good at all.....my whole back and ass has been lyin down the whole day....and its not doin me any good at all i tell u! its making the situation worst...so imma be doin more stuffs so me ass wont just be stuck on the couch in front of the teevee or in front of the laptop :( gawd...i hate being sick!!!

 

hehehe...bah m outs...
 
 

:. but why me?? .:

i was wondering how life is....and like i'm currently chatting with a childhood friend... Marco....and OMG!!...i didnt know life is that cruel..hehehe..kiddin' marco....but yeah...life is cruel...GAK!!!.....its like i see it this way...and other ppl see it that way..totally different from myn...gawd...i miss it when i didnt bother about all these things...but now i guess i do...i'm growing..still learnin...but im accepting facts about how life is... oh welsh...thats just how its got to be....then i'm gonna be accepting it....for all i care...i know i live my life for me...and not to make 'em happy..kay maybe i do care..but just this tiny bit!!...i am sensitive to...i just dont show it...ppl who knows me well should know that...


anyhoots...instead of me goin on and on about how ppl see me...i should stop...and STOP being judgemental...okay...wil try ma best.....hehehhe....


bah im out...tired....hehehhe...

:.Honey.:

okay i think i'm way behind with movies and all....blame that to my tyt sched man...so i watched like 3 friggin' movies this afternoon...until now the teevee is on...gosh...wat a movie maniac i tell u...but i dont get to do this all the time...


so...was watching like Till there was u, Honey, Hellboy ...good movies i tell u..but i liked honey the best...hehehe...i love the dancing and all...me likes...i love dancing... ;)


haizzz...life is boring...however, i'm supposed to be spendin at least 6hours on school work and all...i tried...trust me i have...but it aint workin that much...i'm lucky me rents dont force me to lock maself in ma room...damn imma die if i stay there for long...but then i love ma room...hell ma room is ze best....


last nite izzah and jasmine gave me a surprise visit...goos thing me wasnt in a huge ass tee that i'm usually in...ehehehe....well we had this long ass gurl talks...about me life, their lives and all...haven't seen them in ages....gak....i missed my gurls soooo much...we used to chil...wait...me and izzah hated each other...hehehe..but we are all good now...shes one of my closest friend...someone i trust.. ;) then after talking we just had to eat...hunger baby...and the food my sister cooked was nyaman berabis....hehehehe....irya darling u know wat i mean...


anyhoots....m off....have to chat with my mates...hehehe...bah to everyone.... me loves u all

:.life.:

Today is just one of those days where everything went so-so...boredom!!! but hey it wasnt that bad either...something i like happened...like finally they opened their eyes to the truth...without me getting involved in it...so yeah...


I'm missing the boy soooooo bad..i swear...okay...so we were together the whole day..but we had those ups and downs...but it wasnt as bad...but still!!...we separated and i wasnt feeling oh so good...its like as if something was bothering him but not telling...can someone please tell me when something is going on...i seriously hate being the last person to know...i do!!!


Yesterday....went out with the Fucker clan...thats babyfucker, skyfucker, windfucker(me), dustbinfucker, flowerfucker, chairfucker, tablefucker, slutfucker...i hope i didnt forget anyone...okay....well these weren't the only ones in the fucker clan...but the rest couldnt make it... its all good....we all missed the other fuckers!!...promise we do!!!.....


anyhoots....this post is for Babyfucker, chair fucker, vondutch fucker (abg lanny which fucker are u again??...hehehehe).....u guys are the best...thanks u guys oh soooo much...u guys rock!!!.... I love u guys soooo much....

okay...i'm out...will post again laters....*muahhuggers*

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hhehehhe...hihi....i come from mars and u do not know me and you'll never will MuAHaMuAhA....i come in peace!!!n me name iz pwyncess n im serious!!!!!abt me name mauAhAmuAhA

:.Happiness.:

gak...i felt sad for nothing....nyahahahahaha.....


I'm shoooo happy today... :)


baby is still sick...tapi wat to do?....oh well...just get well ya baby??...


anyhoots....i've been having the best day of ma life.....well sorta... :) me had the presentation thingy today for my EE....and okay...i cant say it's that bad...but it went okay but not as good as i wanted it to be... :(

gak...tired...

i wanted to post longer but m just tooo lazy...

bah i'm out....(if ever i'll post later again ;)

Haz...oists.....me cudnt care less wat u think...

can i say cry??.....

:'(

i want to cry....wait....i am crying..i hate feeling like this, the whole world is coming down on me!!! nooooo......

i hate my life....i hate me...i hate everything that is going on in my freaking life!!!!

crying wont make me feel better as it bever does....argh...i hate feeling like this...probably the only way that would make me feel better is that to hurt me again....

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.........................its not supposed to be like this!!!!

Die!!

:.happiness.:

I miss u oh sooooooooo much


anyways...that was not meant for anyone in particular...it was me and my random thinkin :)


hmm...just got back from a scruptious dinner with Lisa, Gina, Gerry and YENNIE BUNZ....damn i miss hanging out with them....we went for dinner at Sugar and Spice...then off to Taurean Cafe we went..for ice cream....nyamanzzz i tell u....*yummie* and the talk that we had was good....damn its been ages since ive had talks like those... :)

anyhoots...umm...about missing people...yesh, i do miss random people, my best friend, my closest ever friends from school and the list goes on..but i miss this particular person. a person i've been longing to talk to..but i know it aint gonna happen soon...oh welsh..its all good...i'm happy for that person... ;)


I'M HAPPPPPPPYYYYYY

shouts to my taggers!!!

Beelzzz thanks a bunchies wuman....i got it fixed...:0 hehehee....
Zah thanks wuman...i'm lovin the layout too..out tayo soon ha...miss na kita...
to my other taggers!!...thanks for visiting the site

love u all lots and lots and lots...muahhuggers...

:. WOOO .:

psst....finally a nu layout! took me ages to get this thing rite..ask dian, she knows...ive been bugging her...even beelzz...oh welsh...sorrie for being me!!

i can say this layout rocks...cool eh...i know its too pink and all...but yeah..i like pink..but at least this isnt shoooo feminine like the other pinks that i know ;) okay...imma stick to this layout till...umm....i dunno when....nyahahahaa....

anyhoots...

okay since ive last blogged....ive done shoo much....*omg!* can u actually believe the fact that i've been shoo rajin nowadays..like wtf?...school is about to end in exactly 3 days...well not counting tomorrow....WOOOO!!! cant wait for the hols...will bum for a while then will prolly do more school work..gak..!! shoo weird..nothing to do...hmm..well i do have tons and tons of 'holiday homework'...i just shoo hate it when teaches call it dat..its like ruining ma holiday.... oh welsh..

argh...im like shooo pissed....i spent the whole nite fixing this layout...and taking care of kids that i wasn't able to do anything else...sad sad...oh welsh, i'm just not the kind of person who does more than two things at once :(i gotta learn how..teta...i know ur good at this one...

Saturday nite...and i didnt go jalan...like wtf?..oh welsh....hehehe...had things to do...yeah rite..my siblings sooo ruined my nite...they didnt say they were going out...gosh man!..please give me an earlier note that i have to take care of the kid... but its all good 'cos like i was out the whole nite last nite...and it was shooo damn fun..hehehe...chilled with ma gurlfriends....i misshed u guys shoo muchos....went out with fizzieee, qeelzz, fizziee's younger sister, aisyah and maya...the moment we reached gaydong, i headed straight for ZaZa to check out what the boyfy was doin...amazingly he was having a hair cut!!...gak...never thought he'd do it without telling me....or me buggin him to do it...*baby me loves u*..then we were roaming around gadong like the whole day...finally went home like at 9ish...haizz..tired!!!

okay...i'd blog about today too..but nothing much happened...so yeah...

ATTENTION to all my readers!!! i have an announcement...hahahaa....IZA is now gonna join me...so lets all welcome her!!!

okays...now shoutouts to my taggers:-
Dian:-...heres ma updates...hehehe...u know me is a busy wuman!!

QiQi:-...loved the time i spent withchu yesterday....and shorrieee...me loves u wuman!!

Qool:-...hmm...matet=slut..i dont think thats an equation..i'll give u a better equation Matet=Bitch...as in Beautiful Intelligent Talented Caring Honest

zah:-...psst...wuman...missing u!!!

iyra:-....me missh u guys to the max....psst....i like ur layout *hint hint*

mimi:-..thanks u...hehehe... :) im still workin on it..

okay i'm out