hmm....

been way ass busy for the past few days....no wait...these past few weeks...haven't been going out much except with my boyfriend.....(nope...not helbe...but marc)...yesh....me and helbe are history(for now)....but im with marc...will give updates on him soonish....anyhoots..yeah school has been a drag as in a drag...been havin exams....finishing courseworks, essays and all that....damn...been way way busy....I need to get a life....fuck

life is such a bore

damn...i think my life is a bore that i have nothing to do but just type here......oh well....hehehe...a waste of my time...

recently...

-been spending a lot of time with helbe....my beau....just goin places...staying home...talking...
-been credit-less...damn...
-been working my ass out...
-been studying...wow!
-umm.....a lot more...

haha...havn't been out in a while...not my prob...just a busy woman....oh well....dats how life is... :)

okay...im out...wanna know more...just mail me...

matettolentino@hellokitty.com

:. i'm back!!! .:

so....im back from my holidays.....well sorta...will only be dropping in here once in a while...ots the exams now...so yeah....


anyhoots...my holidays.....a blast....just stayed in Brunei...but like had a total blast....


- met a couple of new people....saiful....hmm...a couple more...
- christmas was a blast...spent it with family and friends...*thanks to those who came*
- new year....hahah...the best ever....*muahhuggers to my baby*

those were a couple of highlights...bah...will blog more...if ever i feel like if...but as of now...im outs...

muahhuggers....

happy new year to everyone...

gots to go zzzzzz......

okay...for those of u who actually comes here to read my crap...all im gonna say is....ive gots to go.....

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

for a while...will be back as soon as the stress level ain't so high anymore....

demands of the IB is here....

muahhuggers to those of u....and milabshu all....

say what???

i dont get it whats with people....not that i care or anything.....but "darls this is my space...my life...i mean i know you dont like me and all you want to do is diss me...but darlin' you know what i dont care...'cos to tell you the truth...people like you make me even stronger...you are the ones who inspire me to be who i want to me!"


its sad how people love to diss and all....not that i dont do that...but its just that people can't keep to their own....have your thoughts..but dont bother tellin' cos no one wants to listen...sorry...i bet you...no one wants to hear your thoughts thats y....oh-so-sad!!!


hmmm......anyhoots...other than my new visitor....life is good...well not really....i'm dead ass tired....i mean i've been out and about almost nightly with the parentals...plus school work...and all that crap....but then the weekend is for the friends....hahaha....can't wait for the weekend...


last night...had this carolling practice with kids...and it was fun....not that i love kids but they were sooo cute....i cant wait for christmas...the best time of the year....gifts and all....hahaha....i like!


anyways....before this gets way ass long..better bounce...got work to so....toodle-loo...*muahhuggers*


oh...to you....get a life..and try enjoyin it....i pity people like you!

:.fuck this shit!.:

i hate that motherfather bitch so damn motherfather much!!!!


argh.......now my exeat...what next....suspension??...wtf??...i dont do no shit in this fucking school.....motherfather!!!....i hate her....sooo motherfather muchos......i am sooo gonna not live like this...this aint my life....this aint all....she is sooo gonna get everything she asked for.....argh...kill this mother father bitch!!!!!



suicidal...yes....but not for me!!!.....for her!!!....she thinks she knows every single fucking thing....i dont think so...you mother father bitch!!!

hmm...

i'm finally 19!!!.....OMG!!...i feel so fucking old......mother father!!!....oh well....


anyhoots...had a party...some ppl came and i sorta enjoyed myself...wont be bothered to type who came....then like around 12 ish...we had games...and we lasted till 4:30am...hahahaa.....neat neat.....enjoyed myself...


sunday...went out with geon, then out to church, then out to gadong to have a drink with ben and freddy....


monday....stayed home...did work...went to church...then to gadong with yennied bunzzz...then met up with ben and freddy again....


tuesday....school.....gadong....home.....church....yayasan...for some kids party at jollibee.....*yawn*...


cudnt be bothered to type everything....so...i'm out......and will be for a while...muahhuggers...

:. me and me .:

gak...last day of school for the mid-term break....but its like no fun at all...somehow i'd rather be in school rather than being at home...cos i simply can't work when im at home....*damn*


Things to do for the mid-term break:
1) world lit by saturday-tomorrow!
2) international day dance tonight! - patrol =(
3) party!
4) design and technology porfolio
5) extended essay 2nd draft
4) business coursework 2nd draft
5) homeworks!!


damn!....so damn much!....in just one week....argh...wonder what i'm going to do....oh well...anyhoots..this week has been an aight week...tuesday went out with jeff for a movie: Resident evil:apocalypse...i'm suggesting everyone should watch it if you've watched the 1st resident evil...its good....as in damn good...then after the movie we went to ogh to meet up with my sister and her bunch of mates....drank a lil' bit of alcohol then home sweet home with good rest....wednesday went out again with jeff and mye..the sister..went to the mall...she had to do something there...then ended up going to chill for a drink with tinette and jojo....the usual peeps i'm with..and its fun...and now the weekend...damn! how sad....can't wait for tomorrow where i can go drinking!!...yayeness...*lets drink to that*


okay...so imma be boucning for now...but will be back as soon as i can and if ever i survive the workload that i have for the following week....byess.....*muahhuggers*

:. plain ol me .:

Life is good.......just when i thought everything was going down....everything seems to get back to its place....yayeness *damn haven't typed that in ages......


anyhoots....last nite was a blast....we had a surprise party for me daddy...then like we invited a couple of people we know...and the basketball team...well players that we know...which is like the whole team....anyhoots....me and daddy went to send my mom to church then went off to get some gas...when we arrived home me sister had everyone ready for the party and all...everyone was there...and when we arrived everyone was singing happy birthday....aren't me and my sister the sweetest daughters...hahaha!!!....then the party started...and so fun we had...then everyone left....but like at 1ish mike b, mike g, nani, chris corbs and bob came back for a another round of yummy food....hehehe...too bad cant have much food... *soup diet - given by the doctor for a week* and so we were chatting until like the wee hours of the morning...sad mike g has to go....he's cute...he was tryina chat me up and get me to eat..but sad i already brushed my teeth and was ready for bed when they arrived...so i didnt eat..but we talked a bit...hes hilarious but i can't really laugh...my tummy (well part of it) hurts! anyhoots....when they left....i went straight to bed!....


and now...the weekend!....argh.....sad sad....no one to chill with anymore...chris aint here... =(...oh well....gotta get my sister to chill somewhere for the weekend.....ha!...and get some work done.....hehehe...well till next time...byeee....*muahhuggers*

:. nothing but me .:

haizzz....this sucks....not this...but this.....*i know you don't get me*


I'm still stuck in school still waiting for abang sufri...and hopefully off to see Princess Diaries 2....I so can't wait to watch it... =)


Last night...well can't say it was a blast...but i miss chillin' as in just chillin'...sittin' and drinking....talking about everything and anything....damn... me, my sister, ate tnet, kuya eugene and chris...were chillin' at my place...then chris left early....*tired..yawn yawn*...then about 1ish mike, corbs, nani, rodell, bobi and this other dude came to the house...now that is when we all started to chill....mike, nani, corbs and rodell are like good friends of ours who happens to be on holiday...well not exactly holiday but like here for the shell rimula basketball tourney....and they were being such sweeties by coming over last night for a drink....the night was long...but it was fun...laughs and all...but we then started to reminise about last year and the previous year....damn...oh well..times change...hahaha...*i moved house*


anyhoots....other than that...me and my sister have been watching the shell rimula basketball tourney....no, not cos of the guys but cos of the game...its good..and i mean damn good...*last year was better*....anyways....thats wats been occupying me...and well chillin' with chris...which reminds me...he's leaving lunch time tomorrow for sg. then for uk....argh...i am soooo gonna miss that guy....he is such a sweetie...


okay, before i bore like the whole lot of you....imma go now...so till whenever...hahaha....*muahhuggers*


to ma taggers :
[teta]....nope...its chris as in chris low...my godbrother...hahaha...the chinese dude who used to go to JIs...then moved to uk??but chris brown, i must say...hes hot....hahahaha....wish it was him...hahahaha *miss u lots wuman*
[izzah]...nope...not kris..but chris...when are u coming back here??? miss na kita...
[joenah]....i know.....miss u lots....*muahhuggers*

:. back in the game called love .:

gak.....


I THINK I'M IN LOVE!!!!


this is sooo not right....i'm feeling all these emotions right now....and like i don't know if its good but hell...i dont really care...i'm loving this fact....but yes...i'm stayin out of relationships...and thats a fact!....well for a while that is....hahahha


so...back to my life...i've been spending most of my time with chris....who just came back from uk...hotter than ever...i must add....damn...hahahaha.....but yeah...he's cool...a nice person to talk to...like all the time....we talk about anything and everything....other than spending most of my time with him...i've been in school...and home with my family....hahaha....spending quality time....*yeah right* nah....


so....hahaha....i'll blog...when i actually have something to blog about...but for now...my mind is blank...


Love me lots...hahaha....and love u all lots too..*muahhhuggers*

:.lunch hour sucks.:

argh.......figgin' argh.....LUNCH HOUR SUCKS!!!!

i swear...this is sooooo not me......i don't like what is happening to my friggin' life!....i miss my babyfarker....i was just goin' through my english lit text during my english class...and there i found her letter!!!!....argh....babybooonzzzzz.....i soooo need you down here in friggin' brunei!!!....gawd.....u know u are the only one who can help cheer me up and everything!....argh....i miss u....i miss him....i miss abgzzz.....i'm missing every one and no one knows it....oh well...not like they give a fuck!


i see the old people i used to hang with, the feelin aint just the same no more....u guys don't get it...u dont know what has been happening with me....ITS NOT MY FAULT!!!!! thank god yennie bunzz is back...i missed her too farkin' lots too...she was one of the few people who i can cry on to....gawd! i miss everyone who has walked in and out of my life recently....especially u!....i may not want to admit it but yes i miss u!!!...among all people but why you!....no not YOU!...but you! it irritates me 'cos everytime i want to do something, it would remind me of YOU!....argh, the malls, the places, the drinks! gawd!....no!!!!.....i hate this part!....i'm leaving but you are not! leave me alone!...i need that...i seriously do!!!! please !!!


alright, before i start gettin all irritated and all...and start to tear up again and reminise about my lovely past...i should go....but before that.....nina and nana....hi *muahhuggers*

:.back in school.;

2nd day back in school and it hasnt been as how i expected it to be....not hell...but better! i guess its cos i've done some work during the holidays...yes, i sat my ass down in front of my school work during the holidays.

anyhoots, life hasnt been that bad...a couple of ups and downs, but so far, i have been happy and the decisions that I have been making has been making me really happy. I know i have regretted some, but then again when i think of it, it aint worth regretting 'cos i know at least i have tried. =)

In the past 2 days, i have been in and out of the hospital, monday, was there for a check up then on tuesday, was there for blood test if i have annemia??? like me annemic?, i don't think so...but oh well, what the hell, never know. was so scared during the blood test....gak, but it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be so.....

Besides hospital and school, i have been getting some of my much needed sleeps both in the afternoon and at night...loving it! but somehow i am able to get some work done so its all good.....sad bit is, i dont have my laptop now...well i do but its at the hospital =( so i am stuck with my brothers pc which no one uses... =( i want my baby back!!! oh well another couple of days =)

taggers!!!
boonish:- i love u lots woman!!
kak cil:- will msg u asap....love u too....
iyra:- thanks for droppin me some <33 much needed =) <33 u lots too...

to everyone...*muahhuggers*

the past few weeks

Life isn’t as unfair as we think it really is. There are some things in life that is good but we think it really isn’t. There are some happenings in our life in which we don’t expect or don’t want to happen. For some reason, I, have been thinking about what has been happening in my life for the past few weeks.

It all started when I started to hang around my sisters and their friends. They are one unbelievable group of people that I know. These are the people who taught me to grow up; they taught me part of who I am today. I am grateful that they are my friends as well. I love the fact that they do not disregard because of my age. Yes, I am way younger than all of them and all of them are already working while here I am still in school and enjoying it. I was starting to hate school because of the workload but then to come think of it, I am pretty lucky that I’m still in school because I get to enjoy life as well.

So, this bunch of people that I have been out and about with most of the time are not workaholics but they make sure that their work is done, but are fun-aholics (if there is such word). They love to enjoy the pleasures of life *let’s drink to that*.

The best thing about being with them are the fact that when you are feeling depressed or whatever is putting your spirit down, someone is always there to cheer up whoever is down. There is always someone there anytime you need a friend. We always as in always make up occasions just so that we could enjoy each and everyone’s company. *anniversary, birthdays* There was never a time that I spent with them that I didn’t enjoy and I have never regretted the late night sleeping, the sessions, the f.ts’ , chilling, basically everything that we do.

I used to think that life is all about pain and suffering. Well sure, we do suffer as well but up to a certain point. We also enjoy life but when we do, we don’t usually realize that we are already enjoying our life and only realize it in the end. How sad is that? Oh well, all I can say is that whatever it is, just be happy and take things as they come and think of that future not just the present.

*this is for the menglait association* Thanks for everything!

they are the ones who have made me happy these past few weeks...thanks you sooo much....love u all lots and lots!!!

:. out and about .:

woooooaaaaahhh!!!! its been a while since i've blogged here. sorry! i've been uber busy with my life and when i get back home i'm uber tired already and so i tend to fall asleep! ha! what an excuse!

 
anyhoots! Last WEDNESDAY   me was out like practically the whole day! gawd....so tiring this whole week. I was out and about with my siblings and a couple of my sisters friends like the whole nite and that nite ended in the morning at like umm.....2am! Baby, Abg Lanny and Abg Farisan came and picked me up at like 8ish *i think* then we left for Boonish's place...then we were off to gadong to do some walking....hahahaha! after gadong it was ARENA time baby!.....we went to arena to meet up with my siblings and her friends. Original plan was to drop me off but no they stayed and played pool.....After arena, the guys dropped me off to CHILLs in gadong 'cos me siblings went there first and I just followed. Then HOME SWEET HOME we went after like 1am...hahaha...but eugene, tinette, bri, turk*dunno his name*, diman and lim came along to our place to do some booze drinking baby!....hahaha...and the morning ended at 2:30ish....

 
THURSDAY...got up at 8ish and left my crib at 9ish *umi, aisya and maya came to pick me up* and headed for the airport. We were supposed to meetup with boons at the time but she wasnt there yet but hadi was, so we went to express and ate. Then baby, abg lanny and abg farisan came and joined us. After a while BOONISH came and we were all 'we are not goin to cry' hahahaha....and so we didnt. After sending boonish off we *maya, aisya, baby, hads, abg lanny and  abg farsan* went off to gadong.....stayed there till lunch time then like before we left gadong Boonish messaged me that she was already in gadong. *missing u to the max darlin*  came home and did some bummin' around then like around 8ish diman came and picked me and my sisters up, went to riverview to meet up with hong then off to sugar and spice we went for dinner. Eugene and Tinette followed us after a while then off to gadong we went for pool *decided that arena was just no the place that nite* . The nite ended at around 12ish then home sweet home we went.

 
FRIDAY....a sooo boring day i tell u. Didnt do no nothing but bum around the WHOLE day!....gawd...i said i was gonna do some school work...maybe later! hahaha...then like at nite me and my parents went to gadong for some SHOPPIN....hehehe....bumped into a couple of people...and my baby, abd lanny, hads and abg lanny.  okay i am not mentionin any other names...'cos sooo not even important! Then like me was soo bored watched like a series of movies...gawd! how sad.....hmm....oh welsh....

 
and so thats how my week went!...hahaha.....bah im outs....*muahhuggers*

:. i'm feelin' so good .:

i said to myself i'd blog last night when i got home about how my day went and all...but nah.....was tired and I needed to do something better like reading my world lit text and so i did.


hahahaha.....random thinking here ;)


Tuesday - 20th July 2004

 
I was bumming, well tecnically bumming cos when i got up did my part of the chores then when mommy came home she told me to arrange these papers and so I did and now all i'm waiting for is the correct answers for me to be able to mark them :) hahaha....then around 5ish me and mommy went for a walk down the road then to the back of this school *dunno the name* we did a lil' bit of joggin'. I like!!! hehehehe....finally got some exercise for me! While joggin Aisyah dearest gave me a buzz and asked me to come over for dinner cos its like *supposedly* a farewell dinner for the boonie boonzzz, yes darls we loves u lots and lots :)


Came home took a quick shower...got bored so i actually fixed my hair...for what seemed the first time in umm......hahahaha....ages!! i dont fix my hair anymore! then umi and aisyah came and pick me up....dropped me off their place and they went off to pick my boy up from baz's place ;) Boonish came, then more people started to come. Finally DINNER.....i tell u this is one of the most yummiest food i had in a while....yummy berabis... ;)  I was practically eatin' soo much, but yeah had to watch what i eat. There were all sorts of food....and the yummiest dish was the pasta with scallops and prawns, the other yummy ones are salmon, mashed potatoes, prawns, chicken....and the desert!! damn...talking about food making me hungry...and i'm just waiting for my sister to finish cooking our roasted chicken for lunch...*yum yum*


Around 10ish Umi, maya, ben and Baby sent me home :)....home sweet home....by the time i arrived home, the family was just haing dinner. NO, I didnt join them but i sat down with them and talked :) then after dinner...mummy had the urge to go to the night market...and she had to drag me along.... haizz~ tired but it felt good to be spendnig time with the parentals once in a while....but when we got home she went all MENTAL...gak~ what is wrong with people nowadays....sooo mental~ not good noh!


So that was my day yesterday~ Monday was boring like hell...so wont even be bothered to talk about that! And today, I'm not even sure what i'm going to do except i'll be goin out with my mommy later when she gets home, or something that's what she told me last nite :) Then I'll prolly get back to more *pukes*Studying!


*thought of the day*
I'm feeling so good, no reason for me to feel good but i just do! I feel loved! *muahhuggers*
 
 

:. WOOOOO.: /added

wow.....hehehehe....a new whatchamacallit??....hehehehe...i think this is soooo cool..... (say what???)..nyahahahha..
 
 
boredom.....haizzz....random post here....
 
 
currently chatting with beelz and izzah, two my closest friends..but they dont know each other...anyhoots..im just waiting for time to pass.....gak....boredom..and the weather is soooo nyaman to sleep in but i just woke up....like 3-4 hours ago....so...umm.taking the idea of sleeping offf......NOOO.....no more sleepin in the afternoon...m gonna get ma ass working...promise!!
 
 
i've actually started on some of my school work...(what-am-i-thinking??)...finished my research for my business coursework and for my extended essay...starting to re-read my world lit texts and other texts, started on my maths....GAWD....i don't do work...nooo...not me!! but i am....hehehhe...somehow i'm shooo proud of myself...
 
 
SAD....thats what i'm feeling now...gawd, i just hate it when i have to send my friends off and Boonish is leaving me already :( hmph!!....dun like as in dun like!!! then kak cil  is leaving again....but i know she'll be back soonish..ya kak?? haizzz...life...
 
 
YESTERDAY.....saturday...went out with jet in the afternoon....bonded with my long lost neighbour...hahaha....then met up with baby and hadz, chilled and walked around for what seemed ages, bumped into people...the usual gadong faces....boredom!!...then i found out that i was literally stuck there, gawd! but then eventually someone came and picked me up to go to ate annie's birthday bash in naja's house...overflowing of alcoholic drinks, overflowing of smokes....ordinary ones :) hehehehe....i was kinda wasted...NOT!!! hehehe...i shoooo enjoyed my nite!! heheheh...then kak cil and abg sal slept over.and before we slept abg sal made us watch PONTIANAK...hell no!!..good thing i was like literally not watchin the movie....hehehhe...wud watch it wen i have someone to hug..but not last nyt :(....oh welsh... :(....
 
 
okay...me thinks this post is getting shooo long.... but who cares....
 
 
i'm sick!!!....i dont like.....down with fever and flu :( not good at all.....my whole back and ass has been lyin down the whole day....and its not doin me any good at all i tell u! its making the situation worst...so imma be doin more stuffs so me ass wont just be stuck on the couch in front of the teevee or in front of the laptop :( gawd...i hate being sick!!!

 

hehehe...bah m outs...
 
 

:. but why me?? .:

i was wondering how life is....and like i'm currently chatting with a childhood friend... Marco....and OMG!!...i didnt know life is that cruel..hehehe..kiddin' marco....but yeah...life is cruel...GAK!!!.....its like i see it this way...and other ppl see it that way..totally different from myn...gawd...i miss it when i didnt bother about all these things...but now i guess i do...i'm growing..still learnin...but im accepting facts about how life is... oh welsh...thats just how its got to be....then i'm gonna be accepting it....for all i care...i know i live my life for me...and not to make 'em happy..kay maybe i do care..but just this tiny bit!!...i am sensitive to...i just dont show it...ppl who knows me well should know that...


anyhoots...instead of me goin on and on about how ppl see me...i should stop...and STOP being judgemental...okay...wil try ma best.....hehehhe....


bah im out...tired....hehehhe...

:.Honey.:

okay i think i'm way behind with movies and all....blame that to my tyt sched man...so i watched like 3 friggin' movies this afternoon...until now the teevee is on...gosh...wat a movie maniac i tell u...but i dont get to do this all the time...


so...was watching like Till there was u, Honey, Hellboy ...good movies i tell u..but i liked honey the best...hehehe...i love the dancing and all...me likes...i love dancing... ;)


haizzz...life is boring...however, i'm supposed to be spendin at least 6hours on school work and all...i tried...trust me i have...but it aint workin that much...i'm lucky me rents dont force me to lock maself in ma room...damn imma die if i stay there for long...but then i love ma room...hell ma room is ze best....


last nite izzah and jasmine gave me a surprise visit...goos thing me wasnt in a huge ass tee that i'm usually in...ehehehe....well we had this long ass gurl talks...about me life, their lives and all...haven't seen them in ages....gak....i missed my gurls soooo much...we used to chil...wait...me and izzah hated each other...hehehe..but we are all good now...shes one of my closest friend...someone i trust.. ;) then after talking we just had to eat...hunger baby...and the food my sister cooked was nyaman berabis....hehehehe....irya darling u know wat i mean...


anyhoots....m off....have to chat with my mates...hehehe...bah to everyone.... me loves u all

:.life.:

Today is just one of those days where everything went so-so...boredom!!! but hey it wasnt that bad either...something i like happened...like finally they opened their eyes to the truth...without me getting involved in it...so yeah...


I'm missing the boy soooooo bad..i swear...okay...so we were together the whole day..but we had those ups and downs...but it wasnt as bad...but still!!...we separated and i wasnt feeling oh so good...its like as if something was bothering him but not telling...can someone please tell me when something is going on...i seriously hate being the last person to know...i do!!!


Yesterday....went out with the Fucker clan...thats babyfucker, skyfucker, windfucker(me), dustbinfucker, flowerfucker, chairfucker, tablefucker, slutfucker...i hope i didnt forget anyone...okay....well these weren't the only ones in the fucker clan...but the rest couldnt make it... its all good....we all missed the other fuckers!!...promise we do!!!.....


anyhoots....this post is for Babyfucker, chair fucker, vondutch fucker (abg lanny which fucker are u again??...hehehehe).....u guys are the best...thanks u guys oh soooo much...u guys rock!!!.... I love u guys soooo much....

okay...i'm out...will post again laters....*muahhuggers*