Monday, July 07, 2008

seriously??

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:Moderate
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:High
Narcissistic:High
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

-- Personality Disorder Test --
-- Personality Disorder Information --




I got that from someones site..and decided to give it a go. Why not?

I think Im partially whatever that says.. (=

I've been busy as of late. Work is like work. Tiring but I can't complain, yet. I've been getting more job offers. I hate it when I've already gotten a job that I actually like, there are so many other temptations out there. Hmm...help??

I miss people.

Oh, I saw this picture at my hubbys computer.




I just thought I'd share some pictures.

Monday, June 02, 2008

pursuit of happYness

I am feeling so happy and lucky today.

Ok, lucky, maybe yes and maybe no.

For me, today is the day that the Lord and St. Jude(he's my patron saint, I heart him a lot) has answered my prayer.

I have prayed for this for a while now. Well, almost a month. Finally, the prayers were answered. It helps being occupied and being patient. It really does. I think the email that my daddy sent me also helped.

I know this is me being selfish and being myself but I really needed to do this to grow up and feel like a grown up. Having a child makes me feel like an adult outside but I needed something that would make me and adult inside and out, as well as my brain. My brain has stopped working for a while now and finally, it will go back to work.

I have a job now. A proper job. *note to self: being a mother and a wife is a career also; just not a money-paying job but it is the most rewarding one though.

=)

This is my pursuit of happYness.

I am still hoping that in doing this, I will be happy.

I am extremely happy with how my life is (no complaints here), I just needed some change.

oh, someone asked me to be an emcee, I'm still thinking about it. I know my parents wants me to do it. But, I will think about it. I want to do it because I want to do it not because my parents has forced me to do it.

Friday, May 30, 2008

on being....

A Wife

At first, I thought being a wife was as easy as ABC but after sometime, it actually isn't so easy. I mean, you have to please the hubby, the family and everyone in between. No, I am not complaining. I am just saying, being a wife to someone so wonderful is just not so easy.

I reckon, some relationships should be thought about several times before commiting. I've never regretted on getting married so early, even until now, I am not regretting. I love being married.

Being married, to me, is like being with my buddy for the rest of my life. I need not look anywhere else for someone to cry, laugh, hug, kiss and everything in between with.

You wake up in the morning, you have someone who hugs and kisses you. You sleep at night and there he is again, kissing and huggin you until you sleep. In the middle of the day, when something goes wrong, he is there for you to talk to. Isn't that wonderful?

A Mother

There are no words on how I feel about being a mother. Everything is just perfect. I know most of you who 'actually' reads this will say, "But you have a maid who takes care of your child most of the time." Yes, I have a maid, but there are times when I do actually spend time with my son and he is just so wonderful.

The moment he was born, I knew that I was already a better person. Hey, you can't blame me, I actually gave birth to a child. A child came out of me. He was inside of me for 9 months.

Wait for my next child. (=

A Daugther

My relationship with my parents was not perfect. I was definitely NOT a perfect daughter to them either. I rebelled as much as I could. I definitely was not a good child.

However, over the years, we mended our differences. We talked our differences and now, we have a better relationship. Ok, maybe getting married made it better but hey, at least it is better.

I love how they still think that I am still their baby girl, even if I already have my own baby. (= My parents are the best. I am ever so grateful to have parents like them.

Spoiled

ok, I know smile, I have said several times that I am *NOT* spoiled. However, after a while, I realised how *gasp* spoiled I am. As Cheryll puts it, I am not spoiled just blessed.

My hunny bunny has been giving me everything he absolutely can and I am ever so grateful to be his wife, life partner and mother of his child(ren).

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Manchester United wins again (=



yaye....MU wins again... I still can't believe that I actually woke up to see the extra time and still none of them was able to shoot...then came the penalty shootout, Ronaldo was the only one from Manchester United to miss and 2 from chelsea missed. Therefore, Papa Helbes team.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

lunch with cheryll

Had lunch lunch with boo boo, chinky, ishmael, cheryll and isabel at foodzone kiulap...as usual the dieters didn't eat. And since my camera died on me...i decided to steal pictures off besh...love love...so if ever you go to her blog..the pictures will definitely be the same... haha..


the girls looking ever so us...


Wink wink and smile =)


the married ones....still trying to be single and all...

love love...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

disconnected




I couldn't get the kids to stay still....they are kids after all... =)



He seems to be the only one to make me happy =) *very happy indeed*

Earlier on today, I just didn't want to leave him cos he was hugging me tight assuming that I was going to go away for the whole day again. I love it when he does that. He turned 15 months last may 13 and he is growing everyday. grr... sometimes, i wish that he will just stay small, innocent, cute...but no...i want him to grow too...hmm...how how how...

Monday, May 12, 2008

Congrats Manchester United!

OMG! Manchester Won! WOOOHHOOOO.......I am so happy for them....promise!


Love love love them....well i do have to support the team that my hubba supports right??...


obviously I have to be there...and I dragged besh and her ever so faithful ishmael =)...




we obviously had to take our pictures together...that is why we are friends.


Till the next season...finally...good sleep for the bubba...No...wait.. Champions League, May 21, 3am...Ok, that I'm not watching but please let me know the result (=

*thanks for the pics besh (=*

Friday, May 09, 2008

quickie (=

ARE YOU:
1. Perfect: = no.
2. Tall: = no.
3. In your pajamas: = no.
4. Left handed: = right handed
LAST
1. Friend you saw: = Helbe (He is my friend, right?)
2. Talked to on the phone: = mother in law
3. Person to text you: = abg sufri
4. Was today better than yesterday: = same ol, same ol
FAVORITE:
1. Number: = 30
2. Color: = Pink
3. Food: = italian and japanese food
4. Place: = Mall
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
= Brush my teeth, wash my face, go to my baby.
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
= my career
Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
= OMG! I'm not even sure anymore )=
Q: Where is the last place you went?
= KB town, to eat murtabak.
Q. Do you smile a lot?
= sometimes
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
= Yes
Q: Are you a friendly person?
= sometimes
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
= In my house, on my bed.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
= because it's mine
Q: When was the last time you cried?
= I'm not sure
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
= I need to sleep. I have to sleep. I need my rest.
Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad ten being great?
= 9
Q: What do you hear right now?
= The teevee
Q: Does anything hurt right now?
= my back.
Q: What's your favorite month?
= October
TEN EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now?
= yes.
7.Are you single?
= Nope
8. Are you tired?
= Nope
9. Are your parents still married?
= Yes. Happily married, you know, the kind that still holds hands while walking in the mall, as if they just got married; but I love them doing that.
001. Real name: = Mirzi Thea
003. Eye color: = dark brown
004. Zodiac sign: = scorpion
005. Male or female: = female
006. Single: = Married with 1 child
007. Crushing: = No
009. Smart: = I try to think so (=
010. Hair color: = dark brown
011. Long or short: = Short
013. Sweats or Jeans: = jeans
014. Phone or Camera: = Phone
015. Health freak: = No
021. Righty or lefty: = righty
FIRSTS:
024. First best friend: = I'm not sure anymore )=
025. First award: = running?? omg! its been so long.
026. First enemy: = haha...i'm not going to name this one. He/she will just stay where he/she belongs
027. First pet: = none. I am not a fan of pets
028. First vacation: = philippines.
CURRENTLY:
049. Eating: = nothing, just finish my mi goreng with boiled egg.
050. Drinking: = coke with lime
052. I'm about to: = read about Brunei
053. Listening to: = the teevee
054. Plans for today: = its nite time, therefore just sleep
055. Waiting for: = nothing
WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
068. Lips or eyes: = eyes
070. Shorter or taller: = taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous: = spontaneous
074. Sensitive or loud: = sensitive
075. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
HAVE YOU EVER:
079. Drank bubbles: = No
080. Lost glasses/contacts: = glasses
081. Ran away from home: = Yes (guilty)
084. Broken someone's heart: = Yes
085. Been arrested: = Not yet. Don't intend to.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Do you like someone: = i love someone
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? = yes, very happy.

*I dont think that was a quickie, hehe (=

Thursday, May 08, 2008

marriage =)



I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. ~Rita Rudner

Thursday, May 01, 2008

friends



"A friend is one who knows all about you and likes you anyway." -- Christi Mary Warner

"A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself." -- Frances Ward Weller

Monday, April 21, 2008

seriously?

Earlier on today, I thought that I should delete all my old posts and start all over; but then when I started reading them, i decided to not delete them. I guess, my past is what makes me the person who I am today.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

life

In life, we have to work things out.

Things just present themselves out in the open but we always have to make an effort to make it work. Yes, God has given us destinies but we always have to put some effort in making those destinies happen.

On a more lighter note. Life is still full of surprises just a box of those really expensive chocolates that we can buy from some really nice hotel shop. =)

Simply live life to the fullest and live it like as if there is no tomorrow.

Friday, January 25, 2008

My child. My precious precious one.



How can I change that?? Help..

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Monday, December 03, 2007

finally...

I feel so relieved. I was happy there but I know that I really have got to get out of there. It just wasn't meant to be. But then again. Thanks for the memories. I will cherish all the good and the bad. =)

Sunday, November 18, 2007

i'm sorry.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

afraid of the future

I just came home from the church after visiting one of our family friend whose remains lay there. I shall miss his smile. While I was there, I started thinking...'damn, we never know when we are really going to go.' He was just playing ball and then he passed. Why?, he wasn't even 40 yet and he has such young children. Well as I always say, I'd rather die in an accident then die having a sickness that even though would prolong my life, its just a way of saying goodbye slowly.

I don't like to think of it.

Monday, November 05, 2007

additional year.

I turned 22. It was a bleh. I'm getting old and nothing has changed. Well nothing that I know of.

My husband said I'm a pessimist. Yes I am. I hate that part of me but I am.

I hate my job. I need something that would inspire me. I need something that would make me want to go to work everyday. I do not like where I am now. I do not like her there. I am so totally against her but that is life. I can't have everything I want. I know it.

I hate rumors. I hate being the person that I am.

Sorry.

Monday, October 08, 2007

I will be ok...

I was out with my hubs and some of my friends and his friends and for some reason, I just couldn't relate to whatever they were talking about at times and then I'd feel totally out too. Why is that? Is it because I've been out of the picture for too long. Sometimes, I fear, that I just don't fit in anywhere.

I will be fine.

I am just not feeling right.