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i was just wondering on what adviser posted on my comments...well adviser dear...umm...i hate to ruin all the good image that u have and for trying to fix my life and all...but honey darling...nope i don't need anyone to advise me on my life...trust me..its just that phase i am at...so yeah..but thanks anyways...it was great knowing you.

anyways...i've been way way too out of my life recently...i've been like sooo busy last weekend...i swear...i have never thought it was gonna happen but it did...i wanted to have a really non-busy weekend...especially on sunday i was so planning to getting some much needed sleep...i mean the whole week was soo tiring...i had soo much things to do for the whole week...last wekend carousel..then after dat...wednesday had the prom/ graduation nite of the yr 13-ers then like i had a whole binch of things to do after dat but i seriously couldn't really be bothered about it now...so yeah...

The most recent doing though was the scrabble tournament...yesh...i joined in again this year...and again for like the 2nd time...i got 3rd....hmm..but most of the people said i've improved on my scrabble skills...hahaha....like 'u for real or something?'...i'm like the worst at it....but what the heck...i got 3rd baby!!...

umm...today...nyahhhh....i went to send off kris its sooo weird..cos like i've never sent her off..and like this is the first time i sent her off...and it was good....cos i felt soo much better...and like i'm gonna miss this woman a lot...because shes the person who i know i can tell anything and everything too...so yeah...miss u already wuman ...then off to gadong with mummy and tita lina...hahaha...went dvd shopping with these two ladies...hehehe....a lot of dvds...hehehe...and after that....i've been sitting in front of the tv for like 9 hours to be exact....how sad can i get?...yesh..im that bored...but i've seriousl watched all sorts of movies for the day...i started with ella enchantment..i advise people who loves fairy tales to watch this...then i moved to thirteen ....and i strongly advise adults with teenage kids who are psychotic to watch this...was well as freaky friday...these are movies that might help them understand us teenagers more...i swear...it made a strong connection to me...especiallythirteen..moving on...after those two...now...im watching freddy vs. jason ...and its damn good..hehehe..oh welsh...

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beelzoi love u too..me mish u...muahhuggers..

:. i aint perfect .:

i was just watching fighting temptation..and i swear its a great movie to watch...i liked it sooo much...damn i wish i could sing that good...hmm..

anyways...my brain has just lost all of its memories...i swear...ive had too much information in me today...we had TOK like thw whole day...what was that all about?? but then again..it was good...so yeah....but by the end of the day...i was like hell i cant take no more information from school...and i was supposed to be having mandarin classes after school....i ended up not going but chilled in gadong withabang lanny, ram, boonish, her baby and my baby...then ram send me back to school before 3..thinking i was gonna get picked up at 3...but then no...i got picked up at 4...i was so pissed off...i was bloody tired and i didn't get any sleep last nyt....wtf?...

by the tym i came home i was sooo fcuking exhausted...and thinking that i could get some sleep..but the mother was like..call this person...do this and dat..like the whole afternoon...by the time it was 6-ish..i got so pissed off...i went to sleep..finally!!...so yeah..and i got up at 9-ish...hahah.....then played scrabble with my neighbour jasper and the mother ...and now here i am....

i'm goin...

:. why does life have to be so unfair? .:

Sometimes when i look at my life...i start to think how jealous i am of some of my friends...i mean like look..they have the best siblings in the world..while mine...are like backstabbing me...ouch...sometimes i just want to go and scream...realease everything...all the truth about them...but fuck no one just believes in me....they only believe in THEM.....i hate u all....i swear i do!

please do see me as an adult...not as a child who is still 5 years old for i am no longer the person who I used to be...

:. hmmmmmm .:

hmmm... i'm bored... well i just got back from school.. shit i'm so tired... school is so tiring... sighss.. oh welsh... here i am, doin nuthin.. bored... hehe so yeah i decided to blog.. heheh saja.. ;).. shit i'm so blank.. alright then.. laters..

just wanna make you happy.. i love you :) -k

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aww...ain't he the schweeetest???
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i dunno why i'm like bloggin now when i know i'm not really supposeed to be...cos im supposed to be doing some research..oh well...i've got the whole afternoon to do that...hahaha...and plus im feeling all pemalas now... =) what can i do?...i just got out from school and like i've been studying my ass out in school earlier...i mean can u believe it...i actually did my mandarin work...hell i dont do that shit...but i did it earlier...hahaha..without getting forced to do it..i dunno i just felt so rajin in school earlier...its just weird wen u have like the mood to do something now...and then after a while u just dont have the mood to...hmm...interesting...*ahh....one of my loved words for now....*

oh yeah..im like a picture freak now...hahaha..*since wen wasnt i a picture freak* hehehe...im like sticking pictures of me and the people i love...and maybe...since im like way too lazy to blog now...i myt as well post a couple more pictures...hehehe....so enjoy the show...hehehe....love u lots...muahhhuggers....

DIAN: yesh...its one of our recent pics...and thanks for the compliment darling...i love u so so much...*muahhuggers*

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here i am bloggin again..i guess cos im soooo bored...but aint gonna blog...just gpnna put up some pics that i saw from HIS phone that i liked..hehehe

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i felt so special today for some reason....its like the 2nd time this week that i was in the newspaper...hahaha...and yesh..finally...the show is over...:) felt relieved cos its over..but i miss everyone from the play...i guess that's just how it is..:) oh welsh... one of my friends msged me this job well done folks...expect 3 weeks of fame it was so weird...but yeah...:) then like this afternoon when i went to church a couple of people recognized me in the papers...it was so weird...but yeah..that made me special...hehehe...

i'd love to blog more...but im just way way too lazy now...:) so yeah...hehehe..tata ppl...love u lots muahhhugers

:. over and done with .:

I've been busy with school...and im so sorry i haven't been spending time with you

hmm...ive been soo busy with the school play and all...and its been tough...but its been good..one night is done and so far we were applauded by people..and that made me happy....one more night to go and yes! i am done with the play...kinda got tired of all the practices and all..so yeah.. :)

besides the play...i haven't really been doing much...been bumming for all i know...hehehhe...and school had been a drag...lots of deadlines..but so far ive met them..so yeah...its been good...nothing to complain about in life for now...hahaha...im enjoying it...i guess cos the play had been keeping me real busy to even be bothered about anything that has been happening..:) and i actually end up sleeping by the time i arrive in my crib...so yeah...

anyhoots...am like such a bum...i was too lazy to get up for school today..so i ended up not goin...then now im like chatting with an old friend, DIAN...shes such a sweetheart...and yes darling u can have the person that u want...im giving u my blessings on having him...hehehe...

oh to the people who has commented earlier...wud like to say thanks...and to fucker mucker love your comment...SLUT

Beelzy Darling love u soo much...miss u gazillions too...muahhhhuggers wuman!

:. dum-de-dum-de-dum .:

i just realised how much work i've got....hmmm...interesting...i've been bumming too much last weekend that i should get my assback to work...

hmm....i wonder if whatever i said will work...hahaha...we'll see how the week goes...anyways...life now is better than how it was last week...its funny how people still doesnt forget what has happened....i guess they will but not too soon...i wish they do soon though cos sometimes it hurts...oh welsh...thats how life is...i never wanted their attention...

schools been a beeatch..cos i've got like a lot of shit to do...an essay for T.O.K and a commentary for english...i've also got the play which is going to be on this weekend....shit...im soo scared... =( oh welsh...i got myself into it..i myt as well do my best...anyways...with all these work...ive got like side stuffs as well...hmm...i wonder how its gonna work this week...i'm definitely gonna be getting my lazy ass to work this week...i have to!

otays...ive gots to be bouncing...ciaos...muahhuggers...and to u... i love you...yesh! i do!

:. argh... .:

i swear thereis something wrong with me...i've been having the worst week ever in my 18 years of existence in this world...yesterday i just felt like killing myself for telling the truth to the parents...and for some reason they would rather believe the bullshit that the sister is giving them...i just hate it...

then today i wake up with a swollen right eye...wtf? was my first reaction when i saw myself in the mirror this morning...luckily...before i left school i checked myself again in the mirror and its not that bad anymore...*phew*...hmm...oh welsh...one of those days...

now...my head is killing me and my eye is as itching as hell...argh...this is killing me...so is my cough...i feel like dying...ish ish...oh welsh...i so need something to make me feel better...i need to get out and have a breather...or else i myt suffocate... :(

someone help me...:(

:. kill me .:

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die!!!!

i don't want to live anymore...someone kill me....its either that....or i'm gonna kill myself.....

:. Unloved .:

I was in a state where i don't know who I am anymore...it feels as if something has come over me

In the library now...releasing the depression of life...it hurts to come to think of it...i know it is my fault why this is happening...but i have no intention of doing what i did...it hurts....yes it does. if some of you are thinking that i broke up with him....not that...and even if i did...i wouldn't tell much about it...as that would hurt me the most...

The thing that hurts me right now...is that my family is angry at me for doing what i did....and yes....i know they are....I'm sorry for hurting you all...but i felt at that time that it was for the best..I just couldnt take any more of the pain that you are giving me...and no, i am not talkin about my parents as i have the most loving parents in the world....i may sometimes deny it..but it is true when i look at everything that they have done for me...its more like my siblings...yes...you guys hurt me...

well i have to go..back to class...back to the life...argh....stressed over a lot of things...i love you....

baby...i love you...

:. Flushed and fucked .:

since its been ages since i've blogged here...and i've missed on a couple of occasions in which i'm suppose to be bloggin about...i myt as well... =/

Life has been so tough for me...and i seriously don't know how am i gonna make it through the next couple of days...i swear...i've had a rough weekend...a rough few days of the weekday..and i bet you..it's gonna be worst in the next few days..it might even take days or even weeks...in which i know is gonna be the worst days of my 18 years of living... =/...it hurts to think of it...but yes...i feel so left out with my family...

i know i've got friends..but its so hard to trust now...i dont know...it hurts to come think of it...but i love them all...no doubt about it..i would do anything for them..and they all know it...

well i ain't gonna tell my life story here..maybe when i'm more relaxed to...if not...i might end up just crying...and sulking...i hate sulking..its the thing that i hate doing the most...

i better get goin...will just blog again next tym.... =/ when i'm feeling better...

a week and two days till the show finally comes...and i'm scared shit...i havn't memorise all my lines..but will get over it...

till next tym....

kissed by ANGELEEKA

:. Life's A Bitch .:

if it weren't for you...i wouldnt be strong...i just wanna thank you for making me who i am today....

I havent been bloggin here for a while now...i guess cos im just too caught up with a lot of shit in my life..and im thankful that those things happened....

school has been a bitch...and its been killing me...i hate homeworks....but i cant start to slack again...:( oh welsh....

i gots to go i've got class...so imma boucncing..will prolly be bloggin laterss....when im free at home ayts... okays??...love u lots..muahhuggers