for the first time in a very long time...i felt really nice today. I felt like me. I felt confident. I felt emotionally and physically strong. I felt that there was a lot of greatness earlier on. I missed that. I missed how I was. I missed how I would usually get dressed and feel pretty. I missed those days when someone would give me the stare just because. I missed those days when he would say 'I think you're hot!'. So finally today, I decided, I have to be hot! I have to be myself without restraining myself just because i'm attached. To be honest, it was nice. I liked it. no. wait. I loved it. I loved the expression in his eyes when he saw what I looked tonight. I loved how he said I was 'different'. I loved how he was asking his friends how I looked different. I loved the attention he gave me. I missed that a lot. There were lots of happiness today. I am hoping it lasts.

watched fragile. great movie. freaky but somehow true. I believe in the saying 'they stay with the people they love' and they are the people who are in the other world. *shivers*

I missed you. Thank you for coming back.