In the past month, I have been living a lie. I hate it. It sucks.

I have been living in a life that I want to live in and the one that I am supposed to be living. Fuck. I hate it.

I just want to be uber happy but I really cant. I have been showing everyone what they want to see from me. The happy one. Fuck it. I doubt I can be happy as then. I don't want to be living in the past but then again, I cant.

baby, please make me happy. please??

I want to cry.