I was chatting with a friend of yours last nite. He told me how you told him you still love me. Later on he also told me how you didn't want to get back. At first I was happy, later on, I just wanted to cry. I know I couldnt cry anymore. I've cried more than enough. I've shed so much tears for you. I'm gonna stop feeling everything that I am feeling right now and just go back to my starting point again. This is like the nth time I am saying this but I know this is the time to actually move on. I will move on. Trust me. I have done that before and I will do it again. it will be very hard but hey! if thats the only thing that would make me forget you.

I am not saying that i totally want to forget you. All I am saying is that I want to forget that I was once the girl that you love. Don't worry. I will still love you. But for now I will just put you right behind my heart and at the back of my mind. I will still be here if you need me.

As I woke up today, I decided to go to church. I asked God to give me strength. He gave me that. I feel a lot stronger today. I feel better. I reckon as the day passes I will get stronger and stronger. I will feel better and better. The good thing is, I have actually stopped crying.

I actually found the courage to throw the old roses you gave me for valentines. I decided not to sleep with booboo last nite as well as your sweater. I've chucked them away. I decided I needed to learn to sleep alone. Today I plan to take off your pictures in my room. No, I still wont delete your pictures in my computer. They still keep me happy. I just don't want to see pictures of us in my room as they remind me of you. Ive also decided to keep everything that you have given me. They will always remind me of you. So for now until I know I have moved on. I will place them in a place where I know I can't see them.

I'm sorry but I know I have to do this.