Lunch was great...it felt good...actually it felt better than good. Haha! only Yen knows why...hehe...I told you so... =)

Anyways, I was just thinking about Life itself...it has been a ROLLERCOASTER ride..as in a huge ass one. I have been hurt more than once...suffered...tortured...Then again, I remembered what a priest said during a homily. After Jesus suffered, he became glorious..then I thought to myself, I may have suffered but after all these sufferings, I will be glorious. I will be back to zero but it will be worth it. I promise, it will be worth it. I'm trying and well it will take some time before I can fully move on but I will.

Life is great...it shouldnt be wasted on sulking and crying and regretting over the past. It should be enjoyed as the moment goes by. I love life! I love me! I love my bunbun! I love my friends!and I love you!

*thanks for your call earlier, so till tuesday*

My legs are numb. Im lying in bed now and i can't fucking feel my fucking legs! argghhhh...how annoying can that be??...Today I wake up my right arm just felt sooo fucking numb and now my legs..what the fuck is wrong with me? oh well..haha...i think I will get better...Im not gonna focus on that for now..its prolly just some small crap. Right now I am just focusing on getting back with my life...getting back with being happy. getting back with being me...and not his girlfriend but as MATET...yes, at the back of my mind and my whole heart still wants to be with him but enough is enough..i dont want to cry anymore just because he doesnt want me. If he doesnt then fine. no more crying..