i cried again.

i hate how i am such a weakling for him.

I met him yesterday after a week or so...I just wanted to take him away and keep him in my bag so he has no where else to go and has no other choice but to be mine...Now..that is what I really want.

I still love him.

I am tryin to totally get over it but I just can't. Not with me still in perfect contact with him.

ANYWAYS

easter! I went to kb for my easter vigil. No. not because of him but because I felt I needed something more solemn. My holy week was not even holy week. which felt crap. So i said I needed something more solemn. The vigil was tiring but it felt good. it has 5 effing hours. Full as in super complete easter vigil. One that I haven't attended in a while.

The next day, I met up with him..we went to the hospital to visit his mum then went to church..however, half way through mass we left. I was uber hungry! I havent eaten since like the night before. So we had breakfast then I went back to the hotel I was staying in with an aunt. Then back to where I belong where there was a gatherong for my cousins' belated birthday.

Last nite I went to church with levv..then we went to gadong to catch up with things. I just realise its hard to catch up especially if you have been left out a lot!...No one to blame but myself. I wanted some time to recover. I did and I am recovered. Not fully but I am recovered. I have accepted the fact that I am single and that I will be for a while.

I am not looking for anyone to be in a relationship however if someone I desire or feel something for I may start a relationship but I shall never forget him. I love him and I will always love him.